Letting love in (GTop)

let me be your forever

~Seunghyun~

The summer passes quickly, too quickly in my opinion, but it wasn't waisted in the slightest. Ji and I spent all of it together, despite the protests of our friends and family, who complain that we have a bad habit of shutting the rest of the world out when we're together.

Jinsoo suggested that we find separate activities to do in our own time to create a healthy distance between one another, but also made it a point to tell us that our attachment to one another isn't unhealthy or misplaced. We've been through a lot together and to be bonded in such an extreme that we don't feel the necessity of space, isn't odd, nor does it impact us negatively. He suggested a little distance over time though, so we don't become tired or bored of each other. We're just too happy to care about that right now, however.

We spent a few weeks in Busan on the beach, watching fireworks every night, and soaking up the sun everyday.

This is the fittest I have ever been due to all of the "extra curricular" activities we've been doing and I still don't feel satisfied. I'm not sure I'll ever get enough of Ji's body, of Ji's being. It's not just about the sex with us either, it feels like every time we are intimate, every time I touch Ji's exposed body, our souls bond further. Sometimes when I'm inside of my beautiful lover, I have a hard time distinguishing between his heartbeat and my own. This way we become even closer than before, something I thought impossible.

Ji also manages to drag me around to shop after shop and it seems like my hoodies and jeans are slowly disappearing. My wardrobe now consists of sweaters, fitted dress pants, and classy dress shirts. I feel like a life sized doll for Ji, but I can't really be upset when Ji gives me that gummy smile of his when he finds something I look good in. Especially since he nearly tears me out of them a few minutes later. The closet has seen some things, and I'm very glad that walls can't talk.

This summer has been amazing, but the ever ominous approaching fist semester at university is briskly creeping up on us. Next week Ji and I will be moving into an apartment close to campus, then we will have a week and a half to get situated before classes start, and everything feels like it's going so fast.

A part of me is scared shitless, I passed high school with the luck of my very intelligent boyfriend and what I like to call my intense charisma, but college will be different. I can't bullshit my way through this, and I'll actually have to put forth my best effort. Especially since I have a future to think of now. I have to support Ji, myself, and our inevitable family. I need a good career if I'm going to pay for the shopping and fashion addict known as Kwon Jiyong.

I'm happy to do so though, it's just a lot of pressure to be better, to do my best that has me a little stressed. I've never really had expectations before, no on expected me to go far or do something with my life. But now I have a person who's trusting me and relying on me to do something great... Ji believes in me, in us and I refuse to let him down.

Speaking of future, there's something I need to do before we move into our own place, there's a certain thing I feel has to be made right. Call me a little old fashioned, but it just needs to be done.

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"Seung, I respect that you have this 'thing' you have to do, but we have a week and I'm not even close to finished packing up our closet, let alone the rest of the room"

I roll my eyes "well you would be if you wouldn't insist on putting a label on every single outfit and organizing them by color, occasion, and season"