Letting love in (GTop)

Guardian Angel

~Seunghyun~

Ji and I hold hands as we walk through the overcrowded, overly loud, and increasing pain in my ass known as the mall. I would have complained, but the smile that Ji has plastered across his face makes every complaint die in my throat. He is so beautiful like this and I will do everything in my power to keep him this way, even if it means spending the day as his Barbie doll.

"I think you will look amazing in a dress shirt and a pair of nice fitting jeans" he says brightening further, which I didn't think was even possible.

I can't help but mirror his actions and sigh, amused by the childlike boy nearly skipping towards a store "whatever you want baby"

Ji suddenly stops and gives me a knowing look "you don't have to do this if you don't want, it was just a suggestion and i know you're just humoring me right now, but seriously, I know this isn't your thing"

I chuckle "yea, I'm doing this mostly for you, but some of it is selfish too. I mean don't get me wrong, I detest shopping, which is why I spend most of my time in jeans, band t-shirts, and baggy hoodies. But still I get to spend the rest of the day with you, while you act like a little kid in a candy shop. Seriously, we could be dressing in drag and getting ready to preform a rendition of 'it's raining men' and I would still be content if I get to be with you"

Ji giggles and a playfulness crosses his eyes "you say this like it isn't an option... I do look really good in a dress"

I bark a laugh and blink at him "and how do you know this?"

He shrugs "Minji and I experimented a lot in the beginning"

I snort and bounce on the balls of my feet excitedly "ok, I have to see this"

He giggles again and it goes straight to my spine, shooting all the way up with a shiver that is equal parts painful and delightful "maybe, but the last time I wore one it didn't end up well"

I snort again at the look on his face "and why is that? Did you break a heel or something?"

He shakes his head and then the next sentence out of his mouth has anger pushing through my body at a speed that makes my vision loose focus for a second. "No, Minji decided to take me out to a club, someone got a little too... comfortable and I had a really bad panic attack" he stops and laughs remembering that night "just imagine the scene I made when I was rushed into the hospital"

I feel all of the warmth drain from my face, and my grip tightens on his hand. It almost feels like an animal is clawing at my chest, desperate to break through. The thought of someone touching my Ji and forcing him to that dark place... it does something to me and a violence rips it's way through my brain, startling me at its intensity "Someone touched you? Do you remember him? What did he look like?"

"Woah, hey. I'm fine, and this was a long time ago, I don't even remember that night besides the key points" he attempts to calm me.

I look into his eyes and he leans back a little from how intensely I was staring. I know he is just reassuring me, but nothing about it is fine. Someone else touched him, someone else looked at him.

"No one is aloud to touch you but me" these words came out almost as a growl, forcing a small warning flashing through my head, telling me to calm down, but the images of hands other than mine running over his soft skin, touching parts that no one else is suppose to see, parts no one else is suppose to feel, flow freely through my head, only increasing my anger.

Ji bites his lip, maybe thinking of a way to defuse this ticking time bomb I have counting down inside my head "I'm guessing you're saying no one else can see me in a dress then? Because I don't blame men for getting a little to close, i mean I have to control myself from squeezing my own ass" he laughs nervously, hoping his joke will help... it doesn't.