Letting love in (GTop)

Cloud nine

~Jiyong~

I wake up to the light sounds of snoring filling the room. I sit up in bed and glance over at Taemin sprawled out across the floor, with soft grumbling noises emanating from the boy.

Seunghyun's grandmother has a couple of things to still wrap up in Busan till she moves to Seoul, so until then the kid is crashing at my place. At first i had offered for Taemin to sleep in the bed with me, but Seunghyun wasn't having any of it, and Tae refuses to be in any room other than mine, so he has taken up permanent residence on a makeshift palate on my bed room floor.

It's actually been nice to have Taemin around. I didn't realize how much i actually missed the boy until i have him around all the time. With everything that Seung and i have been caught up in, i forgot how much the kid actually brightens up the space around him, how much energy he brings to the people close to him. Looking back now, It's almost scary how much i had started to rely on Taemin, how much i had integrated him into my life, to the point where I can almost feel the actual hole he leaves behind when he's not around.

I think that's why Taemin reminds me so much of Seungri, and i think that's why i latched onto him so hard, because i almost need him in my life. Taemin brings in life to my world, he makes it easier to breath, after I've been just short of suffocating for so long. After i lost Seungri the light faded to the point where i thought i was going to be lost in the dark forever, but then Taemin came in and i found it again, i found reasons to be genuinely happy, and i can never thank the kid enough for that.

Taemin makes it easier to breath and Seunghyun gives me a reason to, with the two of them in my life i'll never feel suffocated again, i'll never have to understand what it feels like to be helpless or lost. I have my boys in my life and with them i know i'll be ok, I'll get through anything with them by my side.

I glance over at the man currently koala bear'd around me and smile fondly at him "you're lucky i love you" i mumble and place a small kiss on his forehead.

Seunghyun grumbles something incoherent and try's to snuggle closer to me, but I fight it off. I'm in major need of a shower and now, while everyone's out cold and not monitoring me like hawks, it's a good time to sneak a quick one in.

Chuckling, i slink out of Seunghyun's hold on me and pad across the room to pull the blanket up over Taemin's shoulders. I wonder for a brief second where his shirt went, but then again I'm not sure I want to know, so i put it out of my mind and give the boy a quick pat on the head before making my way to my bathroom.

I turn on the water, bringing it up to full blast, admiring the steam that quickly fills the room. It's been a while since I've taken a long hot shower, and i really want one. I sigh contently, letting the warmth radiating around me, relax my muscles.

Pulling off my cloths, and folding them, I move over to the shower and pull back the door. I've always loved my shower, it's so big and the stone tile makes it feel modern and clean. Even when i was a child i always had an obsession with showers and baths, something about cleaning yourself, stripping away all of the impurities that have touched your body, makes me feel almost restored, like recharging a battery that's near dead.

I step under the water, sighing out a huge breath of relief, rolling my shoulders, feeling them unbundle with every second. I take the luffa off the wall and the soap, beginning to scrub my body. It feels so good, like I'm not just scribing away dirt and dead skin, but I'm scrubbing away every little bad thought, every little something that caused me stress.