Letting love in (GTop)

Till i fall asleep

~Jiyong~

The phone rang a couple of times and for a second i am worried that maybe he won't pick up, maybe I shouldn't be calling him. It had only been a couple of days since we officially started dating and I'm unsure if calling him in the middle of the night is acceptable. What if he gets mad at me? What if he's one of those people that gets cranky if they don't get enough sleep? Though I had to admit that the thought of a cranky Seunghyun is kind of cute, I'm kind of mentally freaking out.

Relief surges through me when his low, and i have to admit very sexy voice, huskily answers the phone, washing me clean of any paranoid worry.

"I'm sorry to wake you." i say feeling regret for calling him now.

I am being stupid, I've never needed to rely on other people's comfort before, after I have a bad dream, so why am I suddenly craving Seunghyun's?

He chuckles, but i can tell there's an edge to it "you okay?"

I swallow a little thickness in my throat and decide to be honest with him. There's no point in shutting him out now, especially since I don't think i can anymore "just a bad dream... i wanted to hear your voice."

"Do you have those often?" he asks, concern heavy in his voice and I hear some shuffling on his side of the line.

I sigh "some nights are worse than others"

He's silent for a minute, and all i can hear is his light breathing "i wish i was there with you" he whispers suddenly catching me of guard.

I open my mouth to say something sarcastic about him being clingy, but then I realize that I want the same, i want him here with me, holding me in his arms, making all of the darkness disappear.

"Me to." a light breathy laugh leaves my lips "I think the best night of sleep I've ever gotten was when you stayed with me that one night."

He chuckles cockily "so you admit it, you liked me being there?"

I roll my eyes. "yes, I admit it... you kept me warm."

"Oh, I've actually been curious about that, why are you always so cold?" he asks truly sounding interested.

I bite my lip wondering if I should tell him about it, and eventually I decide to go with more honesty, he knows so much already, so why hide anything else "My therapist say's it's psychological, that my body actually lowers it's temperature because it feels incomplete or something like that... the way he explains it is better"

Silence again and I find myself worried that I had said to much, maybe I was being a little too honest "Ji?"

"hmm?" I hum in response, still obsessively questioning if I had said something wrong.

"I'm going to make you whole again, i promise." he states in a tone that makes me believe him completely.

His words immediately quiet my mind and my eyes become blurry. Before i can understand it, i suddenly feel desperate to have him here next to me. I want his deep voice in my ear telling me that everything is going to be alright, I want his strong arms around me making me feel safe and warm, and I want to see his smoldering eyes promising me the world.

"Ji, i'm feeling sleepy." Seunghyun says in a light yawn.

I sigh "i shouldn't have woken you, i'll let you get back to sleep."

"No, i want to stay with you till you fall asleep, stay on the line with me." He says, and i can hear the smile in his voice.

"Okay." is all i can say as a tear escapes and rolls down onto my pillow. I set the phone on the pillow next to me, the one he would use if he was here and put it on speaker phone.