It takes two (Harry styles)

chapter 78

Riley's P.O.V.

I slowly made my way to the entrance. I'm gonna kill Harry. I opened the door and slowly walked in.

I was met with a group of people sitting in a circle. I walked over to the circle and sat in a chair.

"hi! what's your name?" a female lady asked .

"I'm Riley."

"well welcome Riley! I'm Kelly. we are just getting started." she said all peppy. "okay so most of you are here because you have depression, or you self harm. or your bullied." she said getting all serious. "so we are gonna go around and tell us anything we should know about you. Riley why don't you go first." I took a deep breath and stood up.

"okay, I'm Riley Bard and I'm 19. I've been bullied for many years. I was bullied by the love of my life. I know it sounds stupid of me to date my bully. trust me I know." everyone giggled. " I've been cutting for 4 almost 5 years. I used to be abused by my father. that's a story for another time. I've attempted suicide many times. when I still went to school I had one best friend, that stuck with me through everything. now I have 8 best friends. I don't know if any of you know, but I'm dating Harry styles from one direction. he's the best thing that has ever happened to me. I thought that once I started dating him, he would make me feel better and everything would be okay and the bullying would stop." I didn't realize I was crying till, Kelly handed me a tissue. I grabbed one and continued. "oh boy was I wrong. I got tons of hate from fans. when your a girl who is suicidal that is addicted to cutting the littlest things can set you off. Harry came home one day and told me that I was coming here. I didn't like the idea at all. but now that I'm here and I'm letting all this out, I feel so much better. and I'm sorry that was so long. it was longer than I thought. thank you." everyone clapped and I sat back down.

"thank you Riley." Kelly said. people continued telling their stories and I listened to every one of them. something hit me. I realized that there are so many other people feeling the same way I do. "okay guys, our time is up. we will meet Monday, Wednesday and Friday. if you want private sessions come and talk to me." we all said bye and walked out. I walked out the front door. I was about to call Harry but then a hand grabbed me shoulder. I turned around to see a girl my age standing there. her eyes red.

"hi." she said.

"hi what's up?"

"I just wanted to say that your my inspiration and I love you." I gave her a hug. she lifted up her sleeves and her arms were littered with fresh cuts. "I tried to commit last night."

"listen, I'm gonna give you my number and whenever you feel like cutting please, call me, text me, skype me. anything. I will always be here okay?"

"thank you, Riley."

later that night

me and harry were watching finding nemo, when my phone started ringing. i picked it up and saw someone wanted to facetime me. i picked it up and saw it was the girl from earlier. she was in tears. i got up and walked into a different room.

"sweetheart whats the matter?"

"i wanna die." she sobbed. "please can I kill myself?"

"listen to me. you want to kill yourself? because no one cares. because your parents hate you right?" she's shook her head yes. "no, imagine your parents walking in your room one morning only to find a dead body. they will try their hardest to to not think negative and think your just joking around. they will start shaking you. why aren't you breathing? they will be broken. tears. many tears. more tears that you a have never shed. was it them? were they the reason you did this? guilt fills their bodies. what about your best friends they aren't going to care right?" she shook her head no. "no. what's the first thing that will go through their mind when the principal comes in and tells the class that you are no longer alive. while your best friend is in tears. the girl you smiled at but never talked to you? she's now crying. the boy that used to kick you under the desk just to annoy you. he'll be shocked. he will be devastated. he'll blame himself.

what about your teacher? thoughts crossing her mind. she'll question that you did it because she didn't make the school comfortable enough for you. pain devastation all in one. who organized your funeral? who has to go through your stuff. clothes. notes. see if you kill yourself today you will never know what might happen tomorrow. you will never know because your dead. plain dead. not breathing. your family hates themselves for it.your best friend then falls into depression. many tears. you killed yourself because no one cared right? you are loved by many. someone is thinking of you right now. you are beautiful no matter what." by the end we were both in tears.

"thank you so much!" she cried. "can we make a deal?" she asked. I nodded yes. "if you promise to stop cutting I will too. if you cut, I cut. if I cut you can cut. deal?"

"deal. okay this is gonna sound weird but what's your name?" I asked.

"I'm Lilli. okay I have to go. thank you so much again Riley." I blew her a kiss then hung up. I turned around and saw Harry standing there tears brimming his eyes.

"whats wrong?" i walked up to him and kissed him on the cheek.

"that is the most beautiful thing i have every heard you say. can we go downstairs I have to tell you something." he looked nervous. he took my hand and brought me down to the living room. we sat down and didn't let go of my hand. "you know that I love you and only you right?" uh oh. this can't be good.

"I know..."

"okay I don't know how to say this" he stalled.

"Harry spit it out." I said impatiently.

"I cheated on you."

all the color drained from my face.

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