It takes two (Harry styles)

Chapter 55

Riley's P.O.V.

When I got to the bench I sat down. why couldn't I be dead right now? that's all I want. I want to be gone. nobody wants me here anyways. then I heard footsteps. I looked to my left and saw Sam.

"I knew you'd be here. I snuck away from the others." she said with a shy smile. "what's on your mind?"

"A lot. I just want to be dead. is that too much to ask everybody hates me. I have no reason to be living. I'm worthless,ugly, fat. there are so many things wrong with me."

"Riley you are not worthless and everybody doesn't hate you! harry loves you. yeah we had a fight but that doesn't mean I hate you. and Riley, you aren't fat. when was the last time you ate something?" I didn't want to tell her that answer. "tell me the truth." She can see right through my lies, so its not worth it.

"5 days." I said looking down. we started talking a little more then we walked back to where everyone else was. the boys were there now too. is it bad that I still want to die? I was just standing there awkwardly. everybody had their backs to me. I still want to end it. I walked up to harry and tapped him on the shoulder. he turned around.

"Hi" he said

"Hi, I need to ask you something."

"Okay.."

"Do you still want to marry me?" he stayed silent for a couple minutes. I looked down at the ring as a tear slid down my face. I took it off my ring finger. I took one last look. I put it is his hand and then ran off. I'm ending for real this time. I ran all the way to our flat. I got a piece if paper and wrote a suicide note.

Dear harry,

I love you so much. I know you probably don't love me back, but I need you to know that I really do love you. you have given me all the love I need. I don't even know where to begin. well here it goes.

Harry, I love everything about you. I love the smirk you give me when your trying not to laugh. I love how you tell me cheesy jokes to make me feel better. i hope you find a girl that you love and spend the rest of your life with her. I'm not that girl. nobody will ever love me so why even try? you don't need to pretend that you love me. I don't know if you will miss me when I'm gone. you don't have to miss me, but please don't forget me. I understand why you don't love me anymore. who would love someone who is suicidal? no one. that's why I just need to end it. I love everything that you do. even when you get me completely pissed off, I still love you and nothing will change that. don't try to stop me because by the time you read this I will be gone. I've thought about suicide for a while. but then you came along and made my life 100x better. I LOVE YOU!! please don't ever forget that. I love you and I hope you have a good rest of your life

Love,

Riley xx

Now Sam.

Dear Sam,

Where to begin. you are like a sister to me. scratch that. you are a sister to me. you have put up with all my shit. I don't know how you did it but you did. you have been the best, best friend anyone could ask for. Danielle and Eleanor is lucky to have a friend like you. you have made me laugh when I was upset and you have talked me through things that I would never be able to get myself out of alone. i-

Then I stopped writing. I can't do it. I went into the bathroom and grabbed 4 pill bottles out from the cabinet. I got a glass of water. I was in the kitchen just staring at the pills in my hand. I took about 10 out and popped them in my mouth. then I did another 10. I am starting to get drowsy. I took out 20 and swallowed those too. the front door opened and harry stood there, with a shocked expression on his face. he was just staring at the pills in my hand. I put 10 more in my mouth. harry ran over to me and grabbed the rest of the pills. he called 999 and said that he needed an ambulance. all of a sudden my legs gave out and I collapsed to the floor. I was laying there getting sleepier and sleepier. I heard sirens getting closer and closer. my eyes were getting heavier and heavier. then everything went black.

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