It takes two (Harry styles)

Chapter 53

Riley's P.O.V.

i woke up sweating and crying. i looked next to me and saw i was alone. so me and Harry making up was all a dream? no it cant be a dream. i looked at the clock and saw it was 10. Eleanor was already gone. she had a meeting or something. that cant be a dream! i need harry in my life!! i cant stay away from him. i really needed to do what i haven't done in a long time. before i actually do it, I'm calling Sam so she can talk me out of it. i called her but i went to voice mail. this is where i broke.

"Sam, its Riley. i really need you right now. i know i swore i would never do it again but i just cant take it anymore. i need you to be my best friend again and tel me everything is okay. i called you so i could talk to you and you could talk me out of it but you didn't answer, so i guess I'm gonna do it. i know you will probably hate me after this. and i will understand why. but losing Darcy and harry in one day is just too much. i had a dream where me and harry got back together but then i woke up and realized it wasn't real. but it did make me realize that i cant be without harry. you need to understand why I'm doing this. i just-" then it beeped telling me my time was up. i called harry, but his went to voice mail too.

"hi Harry, its Riley. i miss you.i don't know what we stand but, i had a dream where we got back together, but then i woke up. i realized that i cant be without you. i know you are going to hate me for doing this but i have to. i know i swore i would never do it again, but losing you and Darcy in the same day is too much. i love you." and then i hung up. i was now sobbing. i went into the bathroom and grabbed my razor. i sat down with my back against the bath tub. i slowly dragged the blade on my wrist. there was blood dripping down my wrist.i made about 4 cuts on each. then i realized what i had just done. i wiped the razor off and put it back. i held a towel on my wrist till the bleeding died down. then i put band-aids over it so people couldn't see. i was crying hysterically. there was a knock at the door. i went downstairs and opened it. i saw Anne Harry's mom. she looked at my wrist.

"Harry couldn't come here so he asked me if i would. i thought you said you would stop?" she asked looking me straight in the eye. i broke down even more. she pulled me into a hug. she was rubbing my back.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry!!" i sobbed. once i calmed down i pulled away.

"now tell me, tell me why you did it"

"losing Harry and Darcy in the same day was to much to take, i really love harry and i hope we can work things out. i had a dream where we got back together and that's when i realized i cant be without them."

"how many?" she asked. i was confused at first but then i caught on. i took off the band-aids and showed her.

"okay"

"Riley, if you continue to do this then i have no choice but to get hep for you. you need to stop! do you understand?!" she said firmly. i gulped then nodded. we walked a little more then she had to leave. about a hour after she left there was another knock at the door. i opened and saw Zayn standing there. he looked mad. his eyes were darker than usual. he grabbed my wrist and looked at it. he started squeezing harder and harder. my hand was turning white.

"Zayn you hurting me!" i said holding back tears from the pain. his grip continued to get tighter. i tear fell down my face. "OW!!!!" i screamed now full on crying. he was squeezing really hard now. once he had realized that he hurt me, he let go. he looked at me and started backing away. i saw Harry standing behind him.

"did you hurt her?" he asked Zayn. he said nothing. "did he hurt you?" he asked me. i nodded yes. "leave now!" he gritted through his teeth. once Zayn got in his car and drove away, Harry came up to me and hugged me. i breathed in his scent. i was crying harder.