highkey doesn't make any sense but here you go. for mi novio.
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i think i love you and that's why i stay
i swear i say a million excuses a day
trying to justify something i just don't understand
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you call me your maria but i don't think you love me
your attention's always fleeting and i know you're busy
but even i make time to see you when the stress piles up
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and believe me, i catch myself wishing i could feel something of a spark with old flames
but goddammit i think i love you. . .
which means i'm scared to lose you
i've been told that i should leave you but i know i can't
maybe it wasn't special for you, it was for me
it is, how can't it be
god crying over you feels like a concept that should be so fucking foreign
am i breaking my own heart or are you really hurting me
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i'm sorry if i bore you
i've given you more than i have anyone else
but was i mistaken?
tell me what i did to make you seem so cold
lately i feel like you're a stranger who only seems to know my body
even then, you still don't show me any love
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you used to kiss me like you meant it
now it's called a chore
i can't help the pain it causes
when you talk to her more
so yes i'm crying baby, i haven't told you so
your distance makes me wonder things i'd rather not know
but when you never speak, assumptions are all i've got.
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apologies fall too sweetly from your mouth for me to ignore
simply just your smile holds me to this silence
you said you'd make it up to me
i heard you promise, i've yet to see
my heart's still breaking though
but you wouldn't ever know.
