Blakes POV
I shouldn't have talked about Francesco. It's just, I thought maybe she'd listen if I said he wouldn't agree with it. Because I know he probably wouldn't. I told him I would take care of her if anything happened and I don't think letting her date his punk is taking care of her, at all.. but Lana has a different opinion. And I don't agree.
Lana is on the sofa with her pillows and blankets. "Lana I'm sorry." I said walking up to her. "I don't want to talk tonight blake I'm tired." "I didn't mean to bring up Francesco." "Yes you did. You did multiple times. You have no place talking about Francesco and what he would have done. I'm going to sleep ok." She said rolling over. "Ok. Night"
Lanas pov
Blake pisses me off. Talking about Francesco and how I'm making the wrong decision. I told him not to talk about Francesco. So he needs to not.
"I can't believe he said that." Jimmy rolled his eyes. I'm in jimmys kitchen making him food. "Me either. Francesco would talk to me about it and do what we both thought was right." Was alex that bad?" "I mean he's not award winning but he's ok, he was respectful. He just reminds me of you, the whole thing is just like me and you." I said handing him his food. "Really? Maybe they should come over and talk to us! We could see what they're about." "Blake would love that. Plus Amelia wouldn't come over here."
"Maybe you could just ask her? Maybe it'll make her like me again if we tell her we understand." "I don't know Jimmy. Blake still wouldn't like it." I frowned. "Yeah. You're right. It's a stupid idea." "It's not stupid it's actually a good idea it just won't work."
I just got home. Amelia is at school. We let her go back. I'm in the kitchen eating a sandwich when Blake walks in "hey babe." He smiles. "Hey"
"Are you still mad?" He asks. "Yeah kinda." I said chewing. "Lanaaaaa I'm sorry." "It's fine. You just really pissed me off." "I just really think we aren't making the right decision." "Yeah well Amelia is my kid and I say we're doing the right thing." I said throwing my stuff in the sink.
"Oh so now she's just your kid?" Blake says. "I never said that." "You said she's my kid!" "well she is." "And mine! Just because I didn't contribute my sperm! I've been here for her since day one." "I know Blake. I didn't mean it like that. I'm sorry." "So can we just forget that either of us said anything?" Blake says. "Ok. Deal." I nod.
Amelia just got home from school, I go up to her room "Amelia can I come in?" I asked. "Yeah." She replies. I walk inside and sit on her bed "so how's alex? What did he think of us?" "He thinks y'all are cool. He liked you the most though." She laughs. "Gee I wonder why." I laugh. "Sooo girl talk. You're being safe right?" I added.
"Yes mom. I am." "Ok good. So you really like him?" "A lot. His age really doesn't affect anything to us. It's not as weird as everyone thinks." "Oh I know. Me and you are a lot alike." "You mean because of you and Jimmy when you were younger?" She asked. "Exactly. I know how you feel. But Jimmy was a good guy, I just don't know alex too well." "Well Jimmy isn't that good of a guy." She smirked.
"He is. He makes mistakes too. He really cares about you Amelia." "He obviously doesn't if he didn't mind tearing my family apart." She said folding her arms. "That's not true. I care about you and I made a mistake." "I just want to know why you're still seeing him." "Because, he's one of my best friends. Like you and alex, we were really in love when we were younger, I was 15! So young. I can't just cut all ties with him."
"Yeah. I'm surprised dad is ok with it." "Well I don't think it's his favorite thing but he knows he can trust me and he knows I care about Jimmy." "I bet he won't come around here again though." Amelia says. "Probably not." "Dad would beat him up." She laughs. I shake my head "Tell alex he can come over anytime ok? He just can't spend the night." "Ok! Thanks mom" she said hugging me.
"Blake I'll be back, ok?" I said grabbing my purse. It's about 7:00 pm. "Ok, love you." "I love you too." I smile. I'm going to the studio. I just think it's time to record some stuff I've been juggling for a while. I rented it out, just for me. No one else. I haven't told Ben I'm going because he'll go nuts and try to get me to release it. I'm just seeing how it goes.
I walk into the studio and turn on the lights, I pull my hair back into a ponytail and take out my phone, I put some lyrics in the notes and some voice recordings. Francesco use to push me to release this one song I made on my phone but I never did, but now I love to listen to it because it's his favorite. I miss him so much. I always wonder if he misses me too you know? Like if he's watching me.
He always wanted me to be with Blake if something ever happened to him. Because he knew Blake would never get over me. I never knew it would actually happen though. I turn on my microphone and start humming some notes. It feels so good to be here again. About 20 minutes later I get a call from Blake "Hey what's up?" I answered. "Nothingggg" he says. "Ok? Haha. Why did you call me?"
"What're you doing?" He asked. Nothing why?" "Just wondering." Then there's a long silent pause. "Okkkk. Blake is there a reason you called me?" I laugh. "Nooo. Just checking in." "Checking in?" "I don't know. Well I'll see you when you get home ok?" "Ok? Bye." I said hanging up. That was weird. Maybe he thinks I'm with Jimmy. I didn't tell him where I was going.
I'm listening to a song I just sang when Jimmy texts me "What're you doing? Wanna come over?"
Lana- I'm at the studio, just messing around. Wanna come here?
Jimmy- Nice! By yourself?
Lana- Yeah I need the alone time.
Jimmy-I feel you. Sure, Send me the address!
Lana-Cool! Bring cigarettes? I ran out 😬
Jimmy- Haha of course. Cya in a few.
