Previously-
"First it was Francesco, who I never thought I'd have to say goodbye too...now it's jimmy,I just don't think I can do it." Lana says. "Do what? Live?" I said getting upset. She turns around and just stares at me, Im holding back tears at the sight of how awful she looks, how hasn't Blake noticed? She stutters, she's drinking multiple cups of coffee,not eating,can barley speak a full sentence,and her eyes are watery with huge dark circles. "Is that what you mean? You don't know if you can live?" I ask again.
She hands me a bowl of ramen noodles then walks out of the kitchen. Fuck.
Now-
Chucks pov
I eat a few bites of my noodles then I go to find Lana. "Lanz??" I yell looking around. I see her smoking on the deck. "I should have guessed..." I mumbled. I open the porch door and walk out, she turns around and looks at me then turns away. "Lana. I know that this is so hard..and you can't see how anything will ever be okay again, but, you have me, and Blake, and Amelia and so many other people who love and care about you...not to mention all of your fans. Who've been sending you so much love. You will get through this. I won't let you not. And this is what Blake should also be telling you. He told me he doesn't know what to say and that everything he says is wrong. But he just needs to get out of his feelings and help you."
She puts out her cigarette and hugs me "I love you so much Chuck. Thank you." "I love you more." I said hugging her harder.
Lana is in the kitchen getting dinner ready, Blake just got home, "hey Chuck I didn't know you were here" he says closing the front door. "what the fuck Blake!?" I said standing up from the sofa. "What?!" "Why wouldn't you tell me that lana looks like a fucking zombie and barley talks?!?" "Look Chuck-" "no! There's no excuses Blake she's in pain! She looks like she's dead! I know you think this about you and you're making it about you but that's really immature and you need to get over you're fucking ego! Don't you dare see my sister like this and not tell me!" I yell even louder.
"Guys? What's going on?" Lana said walking out of the kitchen. "Nothing. It's nothing. Right Blake?" I dart my eyes at him. "Yeah. It's nothing. How are you babe?" Blake said walking up to Lana. "I'm ok." Blake hugs her, then we all walk to the kitchen.
Its after dinner with Amelia,Blake and Lana, and no lana didn't eat, she told us she had a stomach ache from all the coffee, which is a total lie. We're all just sitting at the table. "What time is the funeral tomorrow Lanz?" I asked. "12. We can leave at 11." "Okay." I nod. "You have your dress picked out right Lia?" Blake asked. "Yes, I do." "Mom just texted me that her and dad Will be there. They flew in tonight." I said. "Great." Lana sighed holding her head. "That's a good thing baby. They just want to show their respect." Blake says.
"They should have shown their fucking respect when he was alive. They hated him.." Lana said, then I look at her then Amelia. Lana sighs "I'm sorry. I'm going to sleep. I love you guys." She said getting up. "Goodnight mom. I love you too." Amelia said hugging her. "Goodnight baby. Sleep good." Blake adds. I get up then hug her and kiss her cheek. "Night." She mumbles then walks upstairs. Amelia,Blake and I are silent for a while "I'm glad you're here chuck...you always know what to say to mom..." Amelia said. "Thanks Lia! I try but this is a little difficult.." "yeah. Jimmy meant a lot to her..and she already lost dad." I hug Amelia "she'll be okay baby. Why don't you go get ready for bed? It'll be a long, hard day tomorrow."
"Ok. Goodnight chuck, goodnight dad." She says hugging us both. "Night baby girl. Sleep good." Blake said kissing her forehead. She walks upstairs. "Look Chuck. I'm sorry. I really am. I just, well Lana kept saying she was fine and she needed to fix this on her own, and to let her grieve so I just figured giving her space would help." "That's when you call her sister. She doesn't need space, she's hurt and can't see anything getting better. He's not here anymore Blake so don't act like you're losing her to him, he's gone,be there for her." "You're absolutely right." Blake nods. "But it's okay, you're trying...she just. Hasn't slept or eaten."
