Chucks pov
"Are you ready? You ok?" I ask Amelia. We're at the rehab center. It's Lana's fourth day here. Amelia gets to visit today. She hasn't talked to Lana for about a month now. Blake and Lana haven't talked since he went to see her. I don't know if they will. "Yes. I'm ready." She says. I hug her "I'll be out here waiting if you need anything." I said. She nods then she walks with the security guy to Lana's room.
Amelia's pov
I'm so nervous....I haven't seen my mom in a month. I don't know what the...drugs...or alcohol did to her. I don't even know if she misses me. "Amelia Carrozzini." I say Then get buzzed in. I walk in slowly and see her sitting on her bed. "Hey baby girl." She smiles. I half smile "hi mom." I said walking in slowly towards her "come here" she said holding out her arms. I start crying then hug her tight "I missed you so much" I sob. "I know. I missed you too. I'm so sorry Lia. " She cries rubbing my back the kisses my head. I look up at her, she looks so tired and sad. "I was so worried mom...I thought you left me forever." I sob.
"I'm so sorry baby girl. I could never leave you. Lia I don't know if you can understand...but I made a horrible decision and I can't take it back. I can only try to make it right. I gave into my demons, that I tried so hard to fight, my whole life. I'm so so so sorry I made you feel like that Amelia. You don't deserve it. It wasn't your fault. I wasn't thinking right." "I thought it was my fault..chuck said sometime addictions win. I don't believe that. Are you ok now Mom??"
Lana's pov
"I'm working on it. I'm not 100 percent but I will be. I'm working on it everyday. That's why I'm here. It's never your fault Amelia. It's all mine." I said holding her hand. "I'm just worried Mom. So is dad. Are you going to come home when you get out??" "I know baby. I know he is. I don't know. I haven't though that far ahead. I said something awful things to your dad Amelia, and I did some awful things to him." "But you can fix it. You love each other. I know he misses you ever single day." She cries. "Shhh it's okay baby. It's going to be ok" I said hugging her.
Amelia stayed for four hours. Chuck just took her back home. She's going to come see me Sunday. Today is Friday. I missed her so much. I want to get out of here so badly. But I know I need to be here...I'm craving everything again. Medicine, drugs, something to make me feel something. I told blake...I told him about jimmy...about how I was pregnant with jimmys baby...I know it hurt Blake so bad. Especially to hear it like that.
I wish he would come talk to me. I'm working so hard on myself. I've been going to classes everyday in rehabs, three times a day. I just feel so awful for how I treated him...he deserves the world. I wouldn't blame him if he never wanted to talked to me again.
"Do you think Blake will come see me?!" I asked chuck. We're sitting on my bed eating pizza. "Honestly I don't think so. I think he's trying to distance himself from you as much as he can. He has so many questions about what you told him...and I can't believe you never told me." Chuck said looking mad. "I don't blame him. I'm sorry chuck. I couldn't tell anyone. I was so scared. So scared. Then I found out I had a miscarriage so I decided not to tell anyone." "That's awful lana...I would have understood....I just wish you would have told me. I feel bad that you went through that alone. Blake would have understood too." She says.
"No he wouldn't have...I cheated on him multiple times with jimmy then got pregnant? I wouldn't forgive me." You know what Blake told me last week? He told me that he would always find a way to understand and forgive you if you had just told him the truth. And I believe that. He's always stuck by your side Lana. Always. If I were him, I would have dumped you the second I found out you had been cheating on me." Damn. My eyes get big.
"I know.." I mumble. "And what were you doing with Franco??" Chuck asked. "What do you mean?" "He said you tried to sleep with him." "Oh, I don't remember that. I probably did though...we did coke and I was drunk so I don't really remember what I did.." I said. Chuck shakes her head. "He's not going to take me back is he.." I ask chuck. "I don't know Lana. I really don't. But from what he's said I don't think so. But you've been working so hard and I can tell you're already getting better." "Yeah but. I put him through too much."
Blake's pov
"Dad I'm home!" Amelia said walking into the living room. "Hey baby! How did it go? Are you ok?!?" "Yes Dad I'm fine." She laughs. "Well? What did she say?" I asked. Amelia sits next to me "Well we talked a lot. She looks so, well tired and like, disappointed in herself. But, it helped me a lot to talk to her. She also gave me some advice on Alex, I just miss her dad. She's doing good though she's doing classes every day, three times a day." Amelia said looking hopeful. I'm glad she's all excited but Lana could just be putting on a show for everyone so she can get out.
"Well I'm glad honey. I'm glad you got to talk to her." "Are you going to go see her?" "I don't think so honey." "Dad why?!? She needs you!" "Well I needed her Amelia." I snapped. "I'm sorry. I just. I don't know about seeing her yet." I added looking at Amelia's disappointed face. "Ok. I love you." She says hugging me. "I love you too baby girl."
