"She keeps calling me." I said to Byron. "Here give me your phone for the night. You need to sleep man." Byron says. It's 2:00 am. I hand it to him. "Thanks for letting me stay Byron." "Of course. Stay as long as you want even if it's a few weeks." "I don't know anymore. I don't know why she keeps calling me I thought she'd be at jimmys having celebration sex right now." "Man come on. You're being a little harsh." "No im not. You don't even know. I've put up through so much of her shit. It's tiring." "I know but I know Lana...it just is so hard to grasp."
"Yeah I know. I hope I'm not making you feel like you have to pick a side." "No it's fine! I'm here for both of you. You know that. Where's Amelia through all this?" "She's at her boyfriends,she left because we were fighting. Lana blamed it on me." "You guys are gonna make her run away. You need to figure this out." "I've figured it out. I'm done." "Blake-" "no im done." "Ok. Well I'll let you sleep. Night." "Night!"
Lanas pov
Fuck. Blake hasn't answered me at all. I'm so upset. I didn't sleep at all last night. Literally I didn't close my eyes once. It's 6:00 am. I don't know where he is. Amelia is going to be home after school. I said bye to Jimmy last night. We're over. Officially. I just need Blake to talk to me, he told Jimmy that he's done. I think he really means it. I light a cigarette and call him again. I fucked up so bad. I don't know how he heard the voice recording but nothing even happened, there was a pause but that's it, nothing happened.
I can't even think about how I'm not going to talk to Jimmy ever again because it honestly breaks me. Not knowing how he's doing or what he's doing. I can't think about it. Fuck he didn't answer. Ugh.
I'm on my phone seeing if there's any paparazzi pictures of Blake, so maybe I could find out where he is but there isn't any...someone knocks on the door, I look awful, I pull my hair back into a ponytail then wipe my left over eye liner from the bottom of my eyes then answer the door "oh hey Byron. What's up?" I asked. This is weird. "Hey Lanz. I just thought you should know, Blake is at my house. He spent the night." "Oh my god! Thank god. Is he ok?? Come in!" I said opening the door. "He's...well I don't know, he's not good." Byron says. "I know...Byron I need to talk to him." "He doesn't want to talk Lana he's made up his mind."
"What does that mean" I said getting teary eyed. "You know what it means...I'm sorry Lanz. I thought you guys were good." "Byron you have to believe me, I haven't cheated on him since the first time he's known about it! I love him." "I believe you Lanz. You and Blake have always had a thing. But He says you love Jimmy and that you want to be with him and you spend most of your time with."
"That's not fucking true! I've told him multiple times. I don't want to be with Jimmy. We're over! I told Jimmy that last night, he understands. It's over. I'm going to talk to Blake." I said walking towards the door "Lana don't, come on, he'll talk to you soon ok?" Byron said taking my arm. "What's soon Byron? When he sends me the divorce papers?!?" Byron hugs me "I'm really sorry Lana. I don't know what to tell you either..he doesn't know I came here.." "I'm pouring some fucking vodka. Thanks Byron for coming." I said walking to the kitchen "do you need anything Lana?" "No. I'm fine. You can go." "Ok. Text me whenever ok?" "Ok. Thanks. Bye." I said going into the kitchen.
I text Amelia "Love you. And I miss you x" Then I text Blake "Please please talk to me." This is what it's come to. I've messed everything up and I have no one. I pour some vodka in a small glass. Amelia texts me back "I love you too mom. I'll see you after school."
At least she replied!
Blakes pov
"I went to see her." Byron says. "you did? Cool was Jimmy over." "No. she said they're done." "Yeah how many times have I heard that." "She said they really are. She said that he understood." "That's funny how now they don't want to be together. When I'm letting them." "It's because she didn't really ever want to be she just kind of used him for sex. That's it. She really wants to talk to you Blake." "I bet she does. I'll go over there before Amelia gets home." "How about you have her come over here? That way I can be here if things get too crazy." Byron suggests. "Ok. I'll text her. Thanks B."
A few hours later Lana knocks on the door "ugh I don't want to deal with this." I groan. "It'll be fine." Byron says. I go to open the door, right when I open it Lana hugs me "I was really worried." She says. I back up and walk in. She follows me. "Hey Byron." Lana mumbles. "Hey Lanz." "Why are we meeting here?" She asked me. "I don't know. I just picked here." "Okay." "so what do you want to talk about."
Byrons pov
Blake is being so rude to Lana. "I just, I don't know I feel really bad, but the voice recording thing was nothing at all, nothing happened." Lana says. "It's not just that Lana. I told you you can have him now." Blake says. "I don't want him! I told you we're just best friends! It's over Blake. I told him it's over last night. I won't be talking to him anymore. At all." "But why??? You obviously wanted to be with him. Now you're going to be miserable all the time and blame it on me. Fuck that." Blake yells.
"Blake" I said looking over at Lana she looks awful. "Ok. I don't know what to say. I want you. Not Jimmy." "Well.. I don't know what to tell you Lana. We're going to get back together and you're going to be miserable. I just don't want to do that." "So what do you want to do? Get a divorce?" Lana asked. "Well. Yes." Lana starts getting ready eyes. "I think you two should talk about this more before you make that decision guys!" I said walking over to them. "He's made up His mind. Right Blake?" Lana says,he nods. "Ok." She mumbles then leaves.
"Blake.." I say. "it needs to happen." Blake says.
