Aiden Deis: My Subset of Reality

Tuesday, February 8th - 2012

8:06 The bus came to gentle halt before the back entrance of the school. The girl who sits in front of me on the bus, Mayra, needs some time to gather all her stuff, so I stand behind her seat in the middle of the bus, one or two kid gather behind me wanting to get of, though I could care less what they wanted, because what I want is to see the smile on that girl's face when she looks up and sees that I'm waiting on her to go first. She eventually looked up the expression on her face made my soul smile back at her.
It's easy to make someone smile, but that's not nearly as rewarding as a moment of true sincere joy.

8:10 I walked into Mrs. King's room, and we shared a greeting. I went right ahead to go sit down at my computer and used all 20 of the minutes I had left before band started, to work on procrastinating about a World History project that is due on the 14th.

8:37 To the amusement of myself and a big group students, my and Alice(girlfriend) were both wearing the same shirts today, although this was just a wild coinsidence, I bet a lot of kids thought it was prearranged.

12:40 Lunch wasn't any worse than usual and for that I am thankful. I've been sitting with Alice and her friends, Britney and Bethany, ever since we started 'dating' (we've never been on a date) Ive been finding it extremely hard to talk to Alice after i asked her out. I just don't know what we're supposed to talk about. All she seems to want to talk about is kissing me (which... No, after three weeks, I haven't kissed her yet) and the more she asks the more she seems like a silly puppy who just wants to hump your leg. That's not the worst part, her way of asking is not to walk up to me and ask me to kiss her, no, her preferred method is telling all my and her friends that she really what's me to kiss her NOW, and then have them ruin my day by bugging me about it. My main problem with kissing her was my main apprehension for asking her out in the first place, she is two years younger than me, and that bugged me a lot. She eventually ended up texting me that she liked me and then I told her about my age problem and she spun me some bull crap about mental maturity.
I agreed, because she truely is a little more 'mature' then other girls her age. That was the death of me. Although she was very mature, her friends were more than imature enough to pressure her into acting the same way as them. I don't like to talk to her anymore, because any thing I say gets reported to the clac where they then analyze every posable interpretation of my words, and then explain to me exactly what I said wrong, and what I should say and do next time. I have got to break up with these girls before valentines day hits.

9:48 Alice sent me a text reading "Aiden". I replied "Whats on your mind?" She then continued to explain to me that she was 'attached' to a prescription drug. At first I thounght she was playing some sick joke on me, so I called her to make sure. She wasn't joking. I didn't ask any questions, I just told her to have a good night(very politely) and hung up.
I not jumping to any conclusions, I'll go get her out of Mrs. Demps' room tomorrow before school, and have her explain everything. I was counting on her to be one of the last 'good girls' remaining. I'm never sending my children to a public school, imagine what it's going to be like 10-15 years from now!