Aiden Deis: My Subset of Reality

Wednesday, June 26th - 2013

  7:38 Everyone is getting ready for breakfast. We just finished with morning watch about 10 minutes ago, the reading was done by Chase and Marsha. It said that for us to live Christlike, means that our actions must be dictated by love. It reminds me of something Arthur(the speaker or 'keynoter') said yesterday, "love is the only thing that can destroy any system of power- Therefor, love has no power- therefore love has all the power." I'm still chewing on that piece of wisdom, and have yet to decide whether it is indeed a piece of wisdom, or just a regurgitated string of words that is meant to sound profound, but doesn't really mean anything. I do constantly find myself thinking back to those words whenever the subject of love has been popping up, and it seems to make sense, but again that may only be due to its vagueness and my free interpretation.
12:04 today has been good so far. I spent a lot of my freetime down in peacock hall talking to Kathy and another lady with curly blond hair, I've learnt quite a bit from her. Earlier during Investigation Teams, Dan used the phrase "we are all stardust" for the second time during camp so far. It peeked my curiosity and I simply had to ask him wether he was familiar with Neil DeGrasse Tyson (which is from whom I first heard the phrase). Dan looked hesitant (or now that I'm thinking about it might have just been that he was taken aback that I knew what he was alluding to) for a second an then jumped right on the subject saying Christians shouldn't shy away from Atheist perspectives for fear of having their religion questioned, or starting to question it themselves.
Walking out of the building I which we had Investigation Teams, Dan told me about Tyson's podcasts and how funny and witty he is. Up until this point, I've only really seen videos of Tyson serving on panels and so forth and I'd read the first half of his "Death by Black Hole", but I'm exited about listening to his podcasts once I get back to "the real world"
5:11 yesterday I tried to describe my hell. Now I'm going to try shooting for heaven. When I hold the door for a girl who doesn't get the door held for her very often. When someone smiles for me- this if something that doesn't happen very often, it's different from a courtesy smile, it's when someone else is experiencing a moment of happiness that trumps all the sadness they've ever felt- and then the choose to share it. When someone smiles at you like that, you know their in heaven and they want you to be there with them and it is amazing. Sometimes everything is working great, people around me are happy, I'm happy, it's infectious and protective, when you know you can go back to a base filled with happy people, it's a lot les scary to approach sad people to try and make them happy too. It is very hard for me to stay 'in heaven' only ever there fore maybe a two days at a time, once or twice a year, luckily though, throughout the year I get to catch glimpses of it through others... I reckon you can generally tell when you see someone who is 'in heaven'. I think Neil DeGrasse Tyson spends allot of time 'in heaven'.
I hope I'm 'in heaven' at the moment of my death, I hope I'm at peace at the moment of my death. The moment of my death will mark the end of my life, not the beginning of another. I think it is beautiful and noble to die an un ignorant person, because being ignorant is a lot easier. But until the day of my death, I will spend as much time as I can in heaven.
5:39 after this morning's game, I asked the lady with the curly blond hair where I could go to get reception on my phone, so she offered to take me up the hill in a golf cart. Got to the top and I sent my texts, first one to my dad, to tell him that we received th wrong schedule and ill be returning the 29th not the 28th, the second text said the same thing, but to Sharon, because the change in the date of my return meant that I would miss my little cousin Bo's birthday.