Dreams - Dolan Twins Fanfic

Part 6: Aftershock

"Oh my God, you won!" Lola said after I got off stage. She shook my shoulders gentle as her whole face lit up.

"Yeah. I did," I said without much emotion.

"Whoa shouldn't you be excites that you won?" Alicia said as she came over to us with her boyfriend.

"I am," I replied, again, without much emotion.

"Then why do you look as white as a sheet right now?" She said cocking an eyebrow at me.

"Lola, can I speak with you for a moment?" I said as calmly as I could. It came out through gritted teeth.

I pulled her to the side before I started freaking out. "What if they find out? What if they mention her?"

"Ok. Calm down," Lola said as she putt her hands on my arms. "First no one knows besides me, my parents and your parents. No one will find out as long as we don't talk about it," I nodded my head as I slowly realized she was right, "Second, no offence or anything but when you aren't her, you're not very similar to her. If you act like you normally do when you meet someone they won't suspect or say anything."

Taking a deep breath I came to the conclusion that everything she said was right. Once again my best friend was right. "Ok.....ok I think I can do this." I said trying to convince myself that everything was going to be fine.

"No. Look at me. You don't 'think' you can do this. You will do this," she said as she starred into my eyes.

Sighing I told her as I hugged her, "Thank you."

"For what?" Lola said as she hugged me back.

"For always knowing how to calm me down and helping get my head out of the clouds."

"Haha ok. Now let's get back to the party. I want to dance and watch the fireworks!" Lola said as she grabbed my hand and pulled me back toward our group of friends.

The rest of the night went by fast. Food, friends, jokes, fun, music and fireworks. When everything was finally over I said goodbye to Alicia and everyone else.

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"Thanks again for the ride, Lola." I told her as I got out of her mom's car 5 minutes later.

"No problem. And remember stay calm everything will be fine. Text me when your parents know."

"Will do," I said as I mock saluted her.

"Haha," she laughed, "Goodnight dork."

"Goodnight," I told her as I waved goodbye.

Ten minutes later, I had explained what I won to my parents. Now I was laying on my bed just thinking.

Why me? I only entered once, how could I of won? I pondered this for a few minutes. It really had me confuzzled.

To try and take my mind off of what had happened, I opened up my laptop and looked at the one girl's comment again. I set my camera up and leaned against my bed. Before I started the video I grabbed my mask and slipped it on.

"Hey guys I'm back for another video," I greeted the camera, "Recently I've been thinking. I always talk about normal teenage problems that we all go through but I haven't really said anything about other bad stuff that happens in our lives. A fan reached out to me telling me about how they'd been going through some tough times and how I'd made them feel better. Words don't even describe how much I love that I can be there for you guys. I wish I had someone to turn to when I was going through some bad stuff. You must be thinking, 'How could you have bad stuff happen to you? You're Rose for goodness sake.' Believe it or not I was bullied when I was younger among other things like becoming a social outcast and being the 'fat quiet kid'. I was that girl. I still kind of am. But that's not my point. My point is that bad things will happen but you can't let them drag you down. It happens because it's meant to make you a stronger, better person. Take me for example. Those people that 'gave it to me' when I was younger made me realize that it's ok to be you. You do you 'til the very end. And while it may be hard for you to get past all the bumps in the road now, soon you'll be cruising down the highway with all of the bad things that took place in your rear view mirror. I want you guys, everyone watching this, to take a stand. After someone knocks you over, get up and brush your shoulders off."
"And when you feel absolutely alone, know that you aren't. Know that there's someone out there you can talk too. Know that you can comment on my videos and on my page and I will, I promise, I will respond and give you the best advice I can. And to the fan that reached out to me; you inspired this video. I want you to know that I'm here and you can tell me anything. I promise all of you; my fans, subscribers, viewers; that I am and always will be here for you. I love you guys." Ending the video, I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. Veronica. Breath.

"No tears. Please no, no, no tears," I whispered as I tried not to break down. As I tried not to think of him and...and he looked when it happened. I couldn't hold it back any longer as my chin started to tremble. I sat there with my forehead pressed to my knees crying for the rest of the night.

Little did I know that everything was just about to get more insane.