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Pairing up with demons

  Drowning. That's what it felt like. Drowning in sorrow, pain, hurt, the feeling of loss, turmoil, fear, everything. Her thoughts and demons were enveloping her with every passing second. She kept backing away until her back hit the wall with no more space to run. Cornered, she looked around the darkness for someone to help her. By the door she saw a person emitting a faint light. Maybe they could help. "Help!" She yelled with any hope that they might light up the dark and drive away her demons. The person looked at her and gently shook their head and with that the light completely faded. "NO!" She shouted once more and tried to find that light again but she couldn't. A cackle brought her attention back to her demons who stood in front of her. Their claws creeping up her feet and their aura surrounding her. She tried to push them off, kick, shove, fight but she realised something. Who was she fighting for? In this darkness when she was alone who was there to support her, give her strength, hope, believe in her. That last light had faded away too. All the bright aspects of her life had left so what was there left to fight for? No one would miss her since she had already been abandoned. No one would notice the new dullness that would be attached to her or the growing dark shadows surrounding her. In this crowd she was just another person. Once upon a time it may have been different. There may have been someone who was there for her but now because of her own stupidity she was afraid she had lost them too. She knew how much that person hurt and it killed her. The guilt and pain ate her alive knowing she had hurt that person. That she was the reason that person was bleeding, hurting, breaking...
As she looked back at her demons who were close to devouring her soul, her light. She smiled. The demons were caught off and retreated, now eyeing her carefully. She shook her head and offered her hand. "There's no need for me to fight you anymore. I've destroyed everything already. My refuge has been cursed because of me. I deserve this." The shadows crept up her arm and the demons' eyes glinted with malevolence as though reminding her of her dreadful choice but she was ready to accept her fate. She inhaled one last time and with it her demons had entered and corrupted her light. Her soul was now a beautiful black with shadows haunting her every move. The once sparkling eyes became empty. The once radiant smile had reduced to a sinister smirk. The once gold heart had turned to stone ice. The once joyful girl had died. She and her demons were one. The darkness had become her place of dwelling and comfort. The pain was now addictive, she got high off the feeling of hurt and suffering. Never letting herself heal but instead be haunted. She deserved this. All of it...