Random Thoughts🌙

Saving me or yourself

  "Why do you always shut everyone out? Cut off from people?!"

  "You don't understand! I bleed sadness. I bleed darkness. I contaminate happiness with sorrow. I snuff out the light of joy and replace it with dull colours of gloom. The broken pieces inside of me end up resurfacing from deep within and cutting anyone who gets too close. It's better to hurt on my own than hurt those trying to help me. I'd rather dance with my demons myself than have someone else be dragged into this tango with depression.
  Tell me, would you ever place your hand on the blade to take away the knife from someone? You'd just end up bleeding and hurt yourself in the end. Why go through something like this? Why not just let them keep the knife, rather than risking your own well being?!"

  "Because they'd end up hurting themselves in the end. If it means saving someone in the end, I'd be willing to take such a risk because they would be worth it. You are worth it."

  "You're foolish to think such a risk will pay off. What if they're using that very knife against you? Instead of burying it in their own chest, they end up shoving it in yours?"

~Silence falls between the two~

  "Exactly."