Divergent | No War

69 - Goodbyes

Tobias
"We will meet at 3 am here. Be punctual." I say and let all of my friends out. I have a really bad feeling about what is happening to Tris. I don't even know why. Just a feeling in my gut. When all of my friends are gone and Zeke layed a reasuring hand on my shoulder I shut the door and flop down on the couch. My head hurts, breathing hurts everything hurts. All I can do is think about Tris... and the baby. My wonderful little baby. I know that Tris will do anything to protect him or her. But even she can't stop everything. I hope that they have a bit mercy on her. On my baby. I hope she wasn't too scared to tell them.
I really don't want to wait any longer. I want to go and rescue her. Right now. Not for a single second more I want her to not be with me.
I get up and check the bags I packed. Check Tris things and mine and lastly the ones for the baby.
Shauna bought him or her neutral clothing. I wished Zeke would accompany me. I can't really rely on Uri yet. I mean I know he won't run off or anything but zekes has been my best friend since day one of my new life. And now I am supposed to leave him behind - facing a possible trip to the prison. What I know for sure is that I will get him, Lya and Shauna as soon as the gates are open.
I check my watch. It's only 8 pm. I should sleep. I won't get to much of it.
For a good half an hour I roll around in bed with sleep avoiding me. My thoughts always wandering to Tris and to what she is doing right now. What could she be doing...?

Tris
I wake with a headache. As soon as I am awake my stomach churns and I jump up to throw up into the toilet. Pain shoots to my shoulder, my head and my left foot. I still make it to the toilet in time and empty out my stomach. After that I feel even worse. My stomach rumbles and moves and I barely feel my limbs. I slump down next to the toilet - unable to move an inch. It probably is around 7 am by now. I guess...  My stomach clenches again - this time from hunger.
I drag myself to my feet and over to the heavy door. I bang my hands against it two times. Only a few seconds later a small slide of metal is removed on eye height and I am looking into the eyes of the young guard. "What is it?" He asks almost friendly. I have to hold back tears from how much my body hurts but manage a strong voice. "Could I maybe have something to eat? Just something small?" He looks at me for a few seconds before he slightly nods and closes the slide. I sink down on my bed - my limps finally not hurting that much, only my shoulder still stings with every movement I make and I guess about a year ago the pain would have driven me insane but I got more and more used to pain during the years. I am pathetic and weak right now, they hurt me, but not only my body, I can feel that something is different. How can something change so fast?
A good five minutes later I hear the small beep of the keycard against the door panel and then the click when the door opens.
The young guard steps in - in one hand his gun and in the other a tray with food. I try to ignore the gun and fix my eyes on the food. I can't really categorize whether it is dinner or lunch. The guard puts down the tray on the table and nods towards me. He just wants to leave when he hesitates. "Are you in pain?" He asks in a hushed voice. I nod slightly. "My shoulder..." it doesn't really care whether he knows my shoulder hurts or not. He nods and then lays two small pills next to my food. "Painkillers." He explains and I nod. He looks at me a bit longer and then turns to leave. "Wait!" I quickly say.  Maybe he can tell me the time. "Could-could you tell me what time it is?" He frowns and then looks at the watch around his wrist. "It's 8.30 pm." I nod. "Thank you. For everything." He only nods and then leaves the room. I force myself to my feet and slump over to the table. When it's already 8.30 pm I was unconscious for nearly the whole day. I look down at my stomach and slowly lift my shirt. Not one bruise is on it. Weird when at the same time no other place of my body isn't bruised. Even my feet. Just crazy.
I start eating the food. Cold chicken breast with cold mashed potatoes and broccoli. Not one bite is left on my table when I am done. I carefully walk over to the sink and let the water run for a few seconds before I let some flow into my hands and drink it. Till now I didn't dare to look in the mirror but now I lift my gaze and look in the mirror. I gasp. My face is swollen and full of bruises. My left eye is nearly closed because it's so swollen. I have a large cut over my right eyebrow and my jaw is so thickly swollen that I ask myself how I can even talk normally. Another bright blue-red bruise is still swelling on my cheek. I try to take a look at my shoulder but everything is so covered in bruises that I can't make out where my shoulder could be fractured. I make it back to the bed and lay on my good shoulder. I try to relax my body. My mum once told me about something called meditating. I didn't really understand the meaning in removing the thoughts from your body and wiping your mind clean. But I do now and so that is what I try. Just try to fall into my own mind and let go of my bruised body. Just let it lay on this bed in this cell and watch from above. In seconds I am asleep.

Tobias
I wake up with a start. I look around frantically, searching for a threat that is not there. My clock quietly beeps and the number 2.45 pm blinks repeatedly. I get up and start dressing. I put on my black hoodie, my black t-shirt, my black socks and shoes and my black combat pants. Like that I am able to fight and move around. I grab the stack of clothes I lay out for Tris to wear and put the things on top of the bag I packed for Tris.
After a small but substantial meal I sit on the livingroom floor and look at this apartment. I know that in about ten minutes the others will be there and we will go and save Tris and then we'll leave this compound. I don't know whether it will be forever or just for a few months, but what I am sure of is that everything will be different if I ever return. I'll probably have a child by then, I'll be a father and I'll be with Tris. I'll be with her again. I can't wait to have her in my arms again. I take a last stroll through the apartment and check whether I forgot anything but I got everything. I have one large bag with a few of our clothes and some food and water for the journey.
At exactly 3 am it knocks. I open the door and all my friends come in from the dark hallways. Even little Lya is with them. She is half asleep on Zekes arm. I have to smile about that. Christina closes the door. Lynn, Uri, Mar and Chris all carry a middle sized bag with their most important belongings in them. They all wear the same clothes as me. Zeke hands me a small paper. On it are all the codes we found out. I nod at him. Lynn hands me the small keycard. While Uri and I will go get Tris, Lynn, Mar and Chris will wait outside with our bags. It was quiet a fight to get them there. I couldn't use any more people with me and Uri is the best shot.
"Okay let's go." I say quietly. Zeke and Shauna leave us now. They can't get caught with any of us. Uri and Zeke hug tightly and whisper something in eachother ears. I hug Shauna goodbye and softly kiss little Lya on the forehead. Shauna smiles at me and I smile back at her. I pray that nothing happens to them. "I know you will make it." Shauna says quietly but with a firm voice. "You have to make it. You are our family. We are a family." I nod and hug her again. "Yes we are. And we will come back for you. No matter what. I promise." Shauna smiles and nods. "I know. Please take good care of Lynn. She is tough, I know that. But sometimes she still is only a child." I nod. "I promise I will watch out for her." I say wholeheartedly. She smiles and then Chris comes to say goodbye.
Now it's my turn to say goodbye to Zeke. He and Uri finally separated but Zeke looks like he doesn't want to let his little brother go. Not at all. I smile a small smile at Zeke. "I guess this is goodbye..." I start. "Temporary." Zeke corrects and I have to grin along with him. We look at eachother for a few seconds - both not knowing what to do. "Oh come on, just g me already." He then says and I have to laugh. I hug him closely. "Take care of Uri please. Watch out that he doesn't drink to much and that he doesn't get hurt. Please." I nod. "Of course I will. He is like my brother." Zeke nods. "I know. And..." I wait. "And you are like my brother." I freeze but then hug him tighter. "You are my brother too." He smiles and then let's go of me. "Finally you two lovebirds. We have someone to save." Uri comments and we all laugh. "Shut up." I say and am glad that it's so dark so no one can see me blush a bit. "Please say goodbye to Tris for me. And for lya." Shauna says. I nod. "I will." Then I turn to Chris, mar, Lynn and Uri. "Let's go. And then we go. Zeke , Lya and Shauna stay behind but I don't turn around again. I fall into a jog and the only thing I hear are the rhythmic footsteps of the others behind me.