"CARLEE'S POV"
Hindi ko namalayan na napahaba na pala ang usapan namin ni Johan. Its almost 1 hour din. Sobrang kulit ni Johan bago ko pa siya napapayag na dito muna ako just for this day.
When I came back inside to find Miguel to talk to him. He deserves to know the truth. Yun ang tumatakbo sa isip ko ngayon ayoko nang magtago pa sa kanya.
Nagpatuloy ako sa paglalakad papasok ng bahay. Medjo maingay parin sa loob kwentuhan dito tawanan doon.
Hinanap ko si Miguel and just to find out na his now sitting beside his men relatives and already drunk.
Lumapit ako sakanya para makausap sana siya ngunit lasing na lasing na ito. Pulang pula ang kanyang mukha at tawa ng tawa.
"Babe where have you been? I have searching for you. I thought you leave me." Bigla niya akong niyakap at umiyak. Please don't ever leave me. I love you so much. I can't leave without you."
Biglang natahimik ang paligid at halos lahat sila ay samin nakatingin. Biglang naging seryoso ang itsura ng mga kainuman ni Miguel kanina.
He pull me to sit beside him he continue drinking. I try to stop him but he insist. We stay there for almost 2 hours talking to each other and them drinking.
Hinila ako ni Miguel para lalong mapalapit sa kanya. His trying to kiss me pero umiiwas ako.
"Carlee I think you should bring him to his room. Medyo napadami na kasi ang nainom niya." Saad ni Von Miguel's cousin.
Tinulungan naman nila akong dalhin si Miguel sa room niya dahil hindi na ito makalakad ng tuwid.
Pagkapasok namin sa kwarto ay agad nilang hiniga si Miguel.
"Carlee we will be down stairs if you need a help."
"Thank you Von and Bryan."
Pinanood ko ang paglabas nilang dalawa sa kwarto. The room is big this is my first time to go here. Hindi ko maiwasang kabahan medyo dim kasi ang ilaw there is something that scares me pero sinan tabi ko ang takot at agad naghanap ng towel para ipunas ka Miguel.
As I return to the bed I saw Miguel now standing near the door. He lock it.
"Miguel what are you doing?"
He just look at me for a while. That look is different. I havent seen him like that.
"Carlee I really need you tonight. I want to feel you."
Sobrang lakas ng pintig ng puso ko ngayon I think something bad will happen. I am to far to the door mukhang hindi ako makakalabas dun lalo na at dun pa siya nakatayo.
"What are you saying Miguel. Lasing ka lang kelangan mo ng matulog."
I try to sound normal kahit takot na takot na ako. This is not only me this is also about the baby on my tummy I should be careful with my actions.
"Whats the matter we are getting married at gagawin at gagawin din naman natin ito whats the point of waiting?"
"Please Miguel you know I am pregnant."
My voice now is sound pleading and afraid. Unti unti akong umaatras sa kinatatayuan ko. Kailangan kong mahawakan ang phone ko. I need to call Johan. Yan ang tumatakbo ngayon sa utak ko.
"What's the matter of being pregnant pwede padin naman natin itong gawin ah please Carlee I need you"
Unti unti na siyang lumalapit sakin. Kasabay nito ang unti unti kong pag atras.
"Miguel I am not ready for this."
"What your not ready for this pero your ready for random people you just meet and then you will do it to them. You know how painful it to me. To know that your pregnant with a random man. Dapat ako nalamang Carlee I can give that feeling to you much better pa."
Mas lalong bumilis ang lakad niya at nahila ako at ibinagsak sa kama.
"HELP PLEASE HELP ME!" nag umpisa na akong sumigaw para makahingi ng tulong.
"Carlee thats nonsense we are in a sound prof room no one can hear you. I will be just you and me now."
Nagpipiglas ako pero mas malakas siya I think his really not drunk he just pretend that he is so that I will go in his room. He really plan this.
Hes now on the top of me trying to kiss me pero umiiwas ako I am still trying to reach my phone.
When i finally reach it I contact Johans number it start to ring but Miguel hear it so he get it to me and throw on the other side of the bed.
He now tie my both hands on the bed. Then I saw him may nalalagay siyang kung ano sa panyo but I have a bad feeling for that. I try to kick while souting Johans name hoping that he can hear me but Miguel is to strong he me covers my nose with that handkerchief.
Unti unti akong nanghihina. I can feel his trying to remove my dress. I am still fighting pero pahina na ng pahina ang katawan ko.
Before I totally black out I hear a loud smash of the door and the voice of the man I wish I am with now.
"Carlee!" The voice that gives me the strength that I can rest now.
Then everyrhing went black.
