Not The Same || Jai Brooks

21. Kurt Cobain

The talk was actually going alot better than I expected. We shared just about everything that we didn't know about each other, while forgiving one another for the unnecessary bullshit that took place.

But, as soon as I told him about the guy that I dated, he decided to get all angry and blow up on me, which is very unethical, and irrational. We all know what he's done in the past.

"Ok, Jai, if we're going to argue, I'm just gonna leave because this isn't how this was supposed to go. You can't get mad at me for having a boyfriend, when I know for a fact that you had at least 3 girlfriends after we broke up." I rushed.

He sat there for a minute before shaking his head. "Yeah, you're right. Sorry."

We sat in a tense silence for a few minutes before I placed my  hand pn his thigh, and smiled at him.

"So.. You only have a week left right?" I asked, and he nodded. "Well.. What are we gonna do? I mean.. about the kids and such."

"I figured you and the twins would move back in here, because this is your house as well, and I dunno... I want to spend the rest of the week with you guys, since I'll be with the boys for 6 months." he said, and I could feel my heart drop.

Even thinking about it upset me, I didn't even like him being in Sydney for those few weeks, and now he's leaving for six months. I couldn't do anything about it and neither could he, so there really isn't a point in getting worked up about it, but I can't help it. He's mine and I want him to be at home with me and the kids and just cuddle all day. On the other hand, it's been a while since they've done any tours or anything, so I think it's good for their fans to have a chance to meet their idols.

"Hey.. Don't get upset about it. Remember, that we have a week break 3 months into the tour, so maybe I could fly you guys out to wherever we'll be, at the time." he smiled and grabbed my hand.

"I know. I'm just gonna miss you is all." I sadly smiled. "The twins are gonna starting school, and I'm gonna be lonely. It's gonna suck so badly." I pouted. "I'm gonna be alone for my birthday too!" I groaned.

He grabbed me and wrapped his arms around my slim figure. "You'll be fine.. You and my mum can always have lady time, and be all girly and shit together." he laughed and so did I.

"Right... Gina and I will probably turn into lesbian lovers by the time I see you again. I'll probably leave you for her, babe. You might just want to stay." I joked.

He let go of me and let out a roaring laugh that filled the whole room. It was a beautiful sound that I can't even describe. It made my heart flutter in a way that also made me want to melt right then and there.

"You're so weird. I love it." he said after calming down a bit. "I wish I could stay though. I want to make up for lost time." he pouted.

"It will only be 3 months until we see each other again though. Don't worry about us, we'll be fine. I promise." I tried to convince both of us.

"Okay. I want to stop talking about sad things. Let's just cuddle, eat pizza, and watch Nirvana documentaries on Netflix." he smiled and pulled his shoes off before getting comfortable under the blanket on our bed.

I pulled my shoes off, and my jacket before climbing into bed next to him, and cuddling up to his side. "Hey babe?" I asked and he let out a noise, indicating me to speak on. "You said there would be pizza." I replied.

He laughed, "I'll order it.. my god."

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After watching about 5 Nirvana documentaries, and eating almost two pizzas between the both of us, Jai finally fell asleep on my lap and I was getting pretty close to passing out.