Not The Same || Jai Brooks

17. Tour

 

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My heart beat quickened its pace, and suddenly I felt a lump in my throat.

I couldn't really comprehend what was happening. I should have prepared myself for this, and I don't know why I didn't... I knew it was happening soon.

I stood there silent for quite a while. Longer than I had anticipated.

"Drea? You there?" Jais voice said, ringing through the phone, tearing me away from my thoughts.

"Uh.. yeah... I'm here." I stammered. "Two weeks huh?" I said after a short silence.

"Yeah, I hate having to be away from you guys.... I wish I would have had known a while ago.." he stated.

I sighed, unsure of what to say. I am missing him more than ever right now, I don't know what I'm going to do while he's on tour. The kids are going to be in pre-k in a few months, and Jai will be gone. urgh

"How long will you be gone?" I asked, slightly not wanting to know the answer.

He was quiet before he began talking. "um.. uh, 6 months." he said quietly.

I felt another lump in my throat, and the familiar stinging behind my eyes. I knew I shouldn't have asked, I should have just waited for him to come home.

I squeezed my eyes closed so I wouldn't cry. but nope, I still cried. I silently let tears spill while we didn't say a word. I was about to speak, but I heard someone enter the room. I stayed put, not willing to turn around to see who it was... I was 100% sure it was Ryan.

I sighed, "I have to go.... call me later. I love you."

"I'm sorry babe.. really. I'll call you, I promise, I love you too." he said and I ended the phone call.

I placed my elbows on the counter and placed my hands in them. I let a few tears spill, then I felt some arms wrap around me in a playful way.

"Don't be a sad little puppy."  Ryan laughed, he removed me from his hold, and I turned to face him.

I laughed even though I still had tears streaming down my face. It was hard to be sad around him, he always made me really happy.

"So whats wrong big sis" he said, with a pouting face.

I took in a deep breath so I would stop crying, and spoke to him. "Jai's going on tour." I said.

He raised his eyebrows, "That's actually great news! Why are you so upset?" he asked, furrowing his eyebrows.

"They're going to be on tour for 6 months." I said quietly. I looked down to the floor, and stared at the little speck of dirt chillin right there. I don't know why I was so upset honestly, this is great news, but it seems like Jai just came back in my life and now he's leaving again.

Wow. I am so over-dramatic... He's only going to be gone for six months. It will be fine. Everything will be fine. I said to myself.

"Oh." He said. "It's going to be fine, you have me, Gina, mum, if you really need her, and so many people willing to help you Drea." he smiled. I instantly felt a a weight being lifted off my shoulders. Ryan's words sunk in and I knew he meant it, and I trust him.

"I know, I know." I said, vigorously wiping away tears. Once I was calm, I walked back into the kitchen and cleaned up.

By the time I was done, Jai's aunts had already picked up the other two, Ryan hung out with us all day until about 8 o'clock,(it's 9 right now) so now it was just Daniel, Destiny, and I.