Not The Same || Jai Brooks

4. I Guess Not

*A Little Bit Later*

(Jai's POV)

Today is Andrea's 20 week appointment, and we find out if it's a boy or girl. She looks so peaceful sleeping, I don't want to wake her, but I have too. I shook her lightly, "Dreaaa, wakee uppp." i sung in her ear. She rolled over, and groaned. "I'm awake..." she said in her morning voice.

Once she was done getting ready we headed out the door. We walked there because it was just right down the street.

We walked through the office doors, and were greeted by a woman in scrubs. "Hello, do you have an appointment?" she asked.

"Yes. Andrea Roberts." Drea answered while I just looked at her belly. It's so weird to see her 4 1/2 months pregnant, with my child. There is a human in her stomach because of me.

The woman scanned through the paperwork, "Ah! Okay, Dr.Lute will be out in a minute, you can wait in his office."

We waited for just a little bit, and he came in. "Oh, Andrea, Jai, how are you guys?" he asked, while writing stuff down on his clipboard.

"We're fine." I replied.

"Alright, let's get this started." Andrea laid down on the bed, and Dr.Lute was preparing to spread that blue gel stuff. "This is going to be cold." He warned and placed some gel on her stomach and Andrea flinched, I guess it was cold.

The doctor let us listen to the baby's' heartbeat, but then he had a confused look on his face. "Uhhhhhm, I'll be right back." He left the room and me and Drea just looked at each other confused.

He came back in and said, "Twins! There were two heartbeats." I couldn't even explain how happy I was. I looked over at Andrea who was covering her mouth but smiling at the same time. "Twins!?" we said in unison.

The doctor laughed, and said "Yes, Congratulations! Would you like to know the sex?" he asked.

"Of course!" Drea smiled.

"Well, it seems that you're going to have a girl... and a boy." he smiled.

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Once we got home, we were still grinning from ear to ear. "MUUUM!" I shouted when we walked through the door. "Kitchen." she said. We walked in and she smiled at us, "Boy or Girl?" she asked ecstatically, "Both!!!" Andrea said. Mum had a shocked look on her face. "TWINS?" We both nodded, she pulled us in for a hug. "We have to tell the boys. They're all in the livingroom if you want to tell em now." Mum said with a huge grin on her face.

"Yeah thats fine..." Andrea said turning to me, "Well, if it's okay with Jai."

"Sure, let's go." I gestured them to go.

Mum didn't hesitate to say anything, because before we even made it through the door frame, she was already telling them. "Boys... WE'RE HAVING TWINS." Mum said, like she was having our kids. I just laughed.

I couldn't hear everything, but I did hear a lot of; "AWH REALLY!?" "THATS AWESOME!" "NOW IM GONNA HAVE 2 BABIES TO SPOIL!"

Andrea and I were bombarded with hugs, and congratulations from them.

I knew I should have been happier, but, I'm only 17. I thought 1 baby was going to be hard... but now I have 2. The only reason I keep acting so excited is for Andreas sake. Don't get me wrong, I'm going to love my children more than anything, but this is alot for a teenager to handle.

(Dreas POV)

Everyone is rushing over to me, saying congrats and awing, but I just can't help but feel so nervous. This isn't what I had planned for my life. I thought it would be tough to give birth to one child, but two is one too many. I love my kids more than anything already, but all of this is happening so fast.... but, Jai seems so excited, I don't want to let him down.

"Thank you guys.. But  I am pretty tired still, I think I'm gonna head up for a nap." I flashed a fake smile and walked to Jai's room, plopping down on the bed.

Jai walked in the room a few minutes after. "Why the fake smile?" He asked, plopping on the bed like I had just done. I layed in his lap and he brushed his fingers through my hair.

"I don't know, it's just... all of this is just, so..-"

"-overwhelming..." Jai said, cutting me off.

"How'd you know I was going to say that."

"I feel the same way babe. We are only 17, we are moving into a house together, we are having twins, and I just feel so trapped."

"Trapped?" I was slightly pissed that he said that. I sat up, and turned to face him.

"Yes trapped... I never asked for any of this..I've been trying so hard to force myself to be happy, but I can't anymore." he sighed slightly pushing me off of his lap. "Andrea, I don't think I can do this..." I could feel the tears forming in my eyes and Jai broke eye contact. 

"Wha-what do you mean?" I said, slowly scooting over to him.. As I got closer, he moved back.. "Drea, don't...... I-I think you should go." Was he serious? I was waiting for him to look up and grin. but he didn't, when I saw tears fall from his eyes I knew he wasn't joking.

"ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME JAI?!" I was beyond pissed now. "MY MUM WAS RIGHT THIS WHOLE TIME. I'M SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT TO BELIEVE ANYTHING YOU'VE EVER SAID TO ME. YOU PROMISED! YOU LIED TO ME....." I sighed, "You promised.." I was calm by the time I said the last two words.

He sat there with tears in his face for a second, he looked at me and said, "I don't want any of this..I want to be able to live my life the way it should be."

I sat there confused... This could not be happening right now.. I thought to myself. "How do you expect me to do this on my own?" I asked him, while my hands were shaking and tears were pouring.

"You're stronger than me.. You can figure it out."

I walked out of the house, ignoring the boys asking me what was wrong, and walked to the only other place I could think of.

Wow. Jai didn't even care. He didn't even try to stop me from leaving, I thought he loved me, and I guess I was wrong.

I walked for about 15 minutes until I reached the house. I stood in the yard, hesitant to walk up to the door.

Before I knew it, my feet were walking and I was at the front door. I knocked and waited for someone to open the door.

I was reaaaallllllyyyy hoping Ryan would answer.

I waited for a little bit longer, until the door opened to reveal Ryan. I was mentally thanking God.

He looked super suprised, so I decided to speak up. "Jai and I broke up... anddd, I have nowhere to go at the moment." I half smiled. "Well, actually, I need you to take me to the next town. There's a small apartment there, and I have all the funds to support myself at the moment...." I trailed off.

"You don't have to explain anything to me.. I'll take you." he said and we got into the car and left the memory filled town.

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Okay, I know. This was shit. Don't judge me, I'm sick & It's 12:30 AM