Above The Sky [Kismet Series One | Rewritten]

ATS - 15

My heart's pounding like crazy, It was like there's a very strong beast who wants to break out from its jail. I'm in our long island, sitting in one of its high stools. I can't look straight to the boy who's cooking our breakfast, I don't have the guts to look at him after what I've did.

I'm playing with my fingers, looking at these without having a thought of looking at him.

"Are you sure you're okay with bacons and eggs?" He asked and I just nodded.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit walang bahid ng inis ang tono niya matapos ng ginawa ko sa kaniya kahapon. After my talk with Mama and Papa, I've realised that what I did was wrong, Sabi ni Papa, kahit bata pa ako at hindi maalis sa pag-iisip ko ang mga ganoong bagay. Hate. Jealousy. It's still not good for me to get engaged with those kinds of feelings dahil lalaki daw akong may masamang ugali.

Thinking just about myself without thinking the good in others. Lalaki daw akong makasarili, puro inggit ang iniisip imbes na isipin ang mga bagay na mayroon ako ngayon. I will not be fond with those people who got good intentions because all I'll ever gonna think is about their flaws and little mistakes. I will not grow without practicing to give others a chance to show their good sides.

That's what I did with Bryan. Imbes na isipin ko ang kabutihan na dala niya, Mas pinansin ko ang mga bagay na nagpapaselos sa akin tungkol sa kaniya. The things he did that leaves a mark of amazement into people's minds around us, how he makes them so proud of him, happy for him, that's what I am jealous about. Kase dati sa akin lang ang mga iyun pero ngayon, nasa kaniya na.

Naglagay siya ng plato sa harap ko. I can smell the fresh sweet aroma of Pancake with honey infront of me. Gusto ko man siyang tanungin kung bakit ito ang nakahain sa aking harap ay hindi ko na ginawa, I'm expecting for bacons and eggs though. Nahihiya akong kausapin siya because I know, He might not be close to me, alam kong alam niya ang kakaibang ugali na pinakita ko sa kaniya and that's awful.

"You still have your bacon and eggs. You can eat those after you finished with your pancake."

I nodded again. Can't try to speak what I wanted to say. I wanted to ask him about my parents and maids' whereabouts but I don't think I can start a conversation with him without thinking of the bad things I did to him.

Sunday kase ngayon at alam kong day-off ng mga kasambahay sa trabaho nila, kaya during sundays ay sila Papa  ang usually nagpe-prepare ng breakfast, kaya nga hindi ko mapigilang magulat ng siya ang madatnan ko dito sa kitchen.

Umupo siya sa harap ko, after that he reached a cup of warm milk and placed it on my side.

"Tita Lorraine is busy with the hotel's matters, Tito Philip was called by the sudden emergency operation in MedHe Hospital, Kuya Darren is on Manila while the other maids are in a day off today, Kaya ako na ang nagluto ng umagahan mo, I hope you understand.."

I looked at him and his attention is in his food na. I bit my lower lip as I felt nervousness climbed up to my body.

"I-it's okay, I understand.."

I might not know his reason why he should clarify it if I understand him or not but still, I should give him my answer. Tahimik kami habang kumakain, Hindi ko na inabala ang sarili ko sa mga nakakabaliw na iniisip, mas pinili kong kumalma lalo na't natikman ko ang masarap na pancake sa harap ko.