{ #3 } Twisted Moon (MxM || 18+)

Chapter 25 - Maturing A Bit

Twisted Moon - Book 3 of the Black Moon series - Chapter 25: Maturing A Bit

(Noah's POV - Fri. 20 March 2015)

Today feels like it is never going to end, and yet, I am not so eager to see tonight come and Camden get back home. I do want to see him, but I am kind of nervous at how awkward this might get after my second failed attempt at getting him into my pants. Pretty embarrassing...

I don't know where I got the courage to nearly assault him last night, but it just seemed to be the appropriate moment after his confessions about his past. I am pretty sure that he didn't tell me everything and that he withheld a lot of information, but I still learned quite a few things. One is that he has a younger brother whom he hasn't seen in years. I also understood that he had a brutal father and even if he didn't go into details, I have a guess that he was beaten when he was a kid. My father only hit me once, after he found out I was have having sex with another guy, but I still remember this one moment he lost his control and poured kicks and punches on me; yes, I remember this like it was yesterday. It was only once so I can only imagine how Camden must have felt every time it happened to him.

When I realized that both our childhoods had been fucked-up, each in our own way, I felt like an invisible bond tying us together. Between these revelations, the stress of the late afternoon and this other cuddling moment on the couch, the atmosphere grew tense. It was like we were trying to read each other's minds through our eyes. I saw the darker patches of gray absorb the lighter spots in his irises - as if his eyes were consuming with invisible fire - and I felt compelled to kiss him. I was somehow attracted by an irresistible gravity toward him; I just couldn't help leaning forward and attach my lips to his, as if the connection would only strengthen the bond between us.

This kiss went a bit further than the first one because Camden kissed me back this time. He actually took the lead pretty quickly. I loved the sensation of his velvet tongue swirling with mine, the dominance it held and how he drove the situation by leaning over me. I wouldn't be able to describe how I felt exactly. My heart was beating so fast I thought it was going to burst out of my chest. I relished in feeling his strong arms wrap around me and his hands holding me tightly. What I loved even more was to feel his hard-on against my thigh as he pressed his groin against me; the knowledge that I do affect him that way too was overwhelming.

It was only too bad that he had to put an end to it. Again. And this is where I get confused to be honest. Camden seemed to appreciate the moment. He just can't deny that he did, otherwise, he wouldn't have lost his usual self-control and he wouldn't have gotten hard, right?

This new rejection stung a bit but not as bad as before. One reason is that I know now that I can stir emotions within him, and not only affection-wise; another is that I am more determined than ever to prove him that we can fit together. Making a scene when he broke the kiss wouldn't have served my purposes, so despite the pain I felt inside, I managed to pull myself together and act like an adult. I simply let him soothe me with a long hug and listened to his rambling about the fact that he can't take me into his lifestyle; his words, not mine.

I wish I could understand what he means, though. Too aware of his tension, I didn't want to press him with more questions yesterday and unfortunately, he only remained evasive on that matter. Why is he so secretive about it? And it's not only that! He also mentioned that he was never in a relationship before... Damn! I once again blush at my naivety thinking that he was a virgin! I can be so stupid sometimes! Camden has to be the most handsome man I have ever met, so of course he can't be a virgin at twenty-nine! But is he really happy with only one-night stands? If anything should happen between us, would he really use me once and dump me on the following morning? Would I be able to deal with that? Fuck yeah! I am craving for him so much that I am ready to take the risk.