{ #3 } Twisted Moon (MxM || 18+)

Chapter 39 - First Initiation

Twisted Moon - Book 3 of the Black Moon series - Chapter 39: First Initiation

(Camden's POV - Fri. 3 April 2015)

Waking up to a little koala bear clinging to my body is rather new to me. Noah is lying half over me, his left leg slipped between mine, his arm tightly wound around my waist and his head resting over my heart. Even if it happened quite a few times that I fell asleep in my private room at the Diamond with a Sub in my bed, they were never so clingy and it was rather me spooning them for comfort after an intense scene. This is actually how we ended up last night, but I guess we must have moved through our sleep and in the end, I am not that surprised because he is quite the cuddly kind of guy.

This is not really in my habits but then again, I don't seem to be in my usual mind when I am around Noah; everything is always so different with him and I realize that I actually like this. I can't help a genuine smile when I remember last night because it went far beyond my expectations. Noah not being in the lifestyle yet, I knew that having sex with him would require a lot of self-control on my side. I couldn't afford to behave with him like I usually do with other Subs.

For one, I didn't want our first time to be a BDSM scene; at least not in its full extent. I clearly wouldn't give up on my dominant character, but I wanted it soft enough. Another reason was that from what I understood, Noah hadn't had sex in a long time and you obviously don't take it rough on an almost-virgin hole. It takes a bit of practice for bottoms to know how to quickly and fully relax their tight ring of muscles, especially if they are going to be penetrated by a fairly large dick. Now that's something I will need to discuss with Noah because he turned out to be much more at ease and faster to loosen up than I would have thought; I wonder how honest he was when he told me that he never sold his asshole while living on the streets. That wouldn't change the affection I feel for him, because I know he went through very hard times as a homeless, but I still need to know the truth.

Not only was I impressed by how easily I was able to stretch him, but I was also amazed that he would ask me to take him harder toward the end of our making love. I was so sure he was about to cum at that moment that I almost believed I heard voices expressing my deepest wishes and needs. However, when I looked into the depths of his eyes, I only saw greedy determination and needy lust. I felt overwhelmed by how fast he was to read my own body's distress. I immediately understood that Noah was wishing to fulfill my urges and I wouldn't have yielded to his demand if I hadn't seen that he needed it too. I first gave him a couple of slow and hard pounds to test whether it was what he really wanted, but when I caught that lustful rapture on his face, I allowed myself to give up on a bit of my reserve and it just became ecstatic.

Deciding to have sex with Noah was undeniably a challenge for me considering I couldn't expect to get rough on our first time. Vanilla sex has never been my thing and probably will never be. Even before I joined the BDSM lifestyle, I was never one to take it easy on my partners. It's probably a poor excuse, but I had lived enough hell in my childhood and I needed to grip a hand on my future, therefore I have always had that dominant personality in the few relationships I had. And then, with that inner violence boiling within me, I was never able to start a normal affair; I just had to have it rough all the time. The fact that I never fell in love with anyone didn't help either, I believe. When you have sex with partners only for the sake of sex and release, you don't really make love, you just fuck. Hard.

Hence my apprehensiveness for doing it with Noah. Besides, the fact that I hadn't been to the club in more than a month only aggravated my worries and I wasn't totally sure I'd be able to handle the situation, but I managed to surprise myself. Despite my tense restraint, I was really enjoying making love to him; I think it even helped me to last longer than I would have if I had gone rough from the start. Damn!!! He was still so tight!