Inevitable Conflict

5/11/2017

Today was so great

Things haven't been going well with my family lately, especially with my mom. But when I got home, she was in the best mood and I was so happy because she then let me go to the band concert tonight to support Logan! I was so happy

Logan and I have been growing closer and closer I feel like and I feel so much more comfortable with him everyday. Also, everyday he just gets more and more attractive and I don't know how it's possible. Sometimes I'll look over and I'll notice him clenching his jaw, so his jawline is more pronounced and 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩
I can't get over it

So today during class I was just doing my normal thing, I looked over at Hayley (my twin sister) and I looked away. Then out of no where she starts yelling at me IN CLASS because she thought something was wrong and I wouldn't tell her, and she says "you can't treat me like this just because you're in a mood." Uuuuugh. One of the worst things you could say to me are "stop being in a mood." I instantly was furious.

First of all, Hayley has been lying to me, using me, and ignoring me and all the advice I have been giving her through her whole love life situation right now, even though she keeps asking for it!! And to top things off, once she gets in trouble for being caught sneaking out with her ex boyfriend which she knew she wasn't suppose to do, my family yells at me and says I'm the one in the wrong for letting her do this. But no matter what I say to her, it won't stop her! She has hurt me and dragged me down with her so hard, and yet she has the NERVE to say I can't treat HER like that. Smh.

So anyway. Back to good things. The spring band concert was tonight at seven. I wasn't planning on going until Logan mentioned it today in orchestra. And later he texted me and said "I need you there" and ugh. It was perfect. So I went to support him and for the slight chance I could see him for a little bit! And the concert was really good! Five bands played, and they all played so well. I was really impressed!

I got to sit with Logan while 3 out of the 5 bands played. I was soooo happy!! I wasn't expecting to see him at all! The only reason I could sit with him was because I was close to the section marked off for his band to sit while they weren't playing. I accidentally sat on the wrong side of the auditorium, but it worked out even better that I messed up 😊

I got to hold his hand while the symphonic band played and ugh! 😩😩😩 it was so perfect. I want to go back just to have that feeling again of knowing he is close and with me. I am so in love with him, words can't describe it ❤️

After the concert, Logan and I hugged before I left. I want to go back to that too, so I can feel safe in his arms again. I want him ❤️