Forever Agape [FS#1]

MORNING HAVOC

C h a p t e r  28

"Ang bango mo," Bulong ko.

I looked up to him, only to find out that he's already staring at me.

"Masakit ba?" Tanong nito, bumagsak ang tingin ko sa tinutuloy niya.

The compress fell into the bed because I'm facing him, I was about to put it back when his hand went to my abdomen. His palm is warm, slowly caressing it. I breathe heavily, my chest hurts not because I'm in pain but because my heart wants to pop out.

"Can you handle it? What do you want?" With his husky voice, he asked. I bit my lower lip, I reached for his hand and he immediately stopped. His touch is too delicate, solemn. Let this night be longer, let the sun stay in the dark place for a while.

"Tell me now," I demanded. "I want to know you." It was something strange, I feel like I broke something. When I said that, I know I just crossed the line. "I told myself it's not my thing to touch," I whispered, he gripped my pulse as he rests our hand in his side.

"I lost my mother the day I was born, I lost my father six years after. He remarried, he left me in Caricia Añoranza as he live here." Humigpit ang kapit niya sa akin, hindi ko na kayang tanggalin ang mata sa kanya. Hindi ito nakatingin sa akin, ngunit nakita ko kung paano gumuhit ang sakit sa mata nito.

"God knows how much I loathe him for that, I pour all the hatred to the world and it was him to be blamed, I told myself. The time he told me I have two siblings, a twin, I loathed him more. Even the children who are clueless, I hate that he can give them a whole family. I was never good to anyone, he told me my name suits me well... I was a child."

Ipinikit ko ang mata, punyal ang mga salita na lumabas sa kanyang bibig. It must have been difficult, but I guess you've learned to play with the fire. You dodge every ball of it, perfectly.

"I live with them for awhile, lumipat din ako. I'm such a negative energy," Lumipat na ang tingin niya sa akin, nagulat ako roon. "Gusto mo nang matulog?" Umiling ako, tipid siyang ngumiti at tumango. "Your mother is a good visitor, she was morelike a mother-figure for me. She visits me in Caricia Añoranza, as a child, I became fond of her visitations. She's good to me, I respect her a lot."

"We never met," Kung nakilala ko man siya, dahil lang iyon sa usap-usapan siya.

"We never did," Of course, not until that one night. When they told us that we have to live in one house. "Pero may kilala akong laging nasa guidance office," Tumaas ang kilay ko at natawa naman ito.

"Excuse me?" Natawa rin ako at umiling na lang. "May kilala akong inangkin ang hall of fame, muntik pa nga maging girlfriend ang Student Council President." He bit his lower lip as he chuckled, he gently stroke my hair with his fingetips. Nag-aaya nang matulog iyon.

"She didn't attract me at all,"

"Then perhaps, those hot girls in the bar you went to." Tinulak ko ang dibdib nito. "Huwag kang mahiya, pwede ka namang pumunta sa mga luho mo." His hand went to my back, he then pulled me again.

"And leave you here?"

"Aalis din ako," Umiling siya, ngumisi ako at nanliit ang mata. "I'll be hanging out too, we can fake our ages to go inside a bar."

"Then, I won't leave so you won't leave too." Iniwas ko ang tingin at palihim na napangiti, mas gusto ko ang usapan na iyon. "Matulog ka na," I was expecting him to let me go, but it looks like he has no plans. I close my eyes as he continue to play with some strands of my hair. Naaya niya na akong matulog.

I told myself it's enough, I've seen a glimpse of his life. This silent night match a lifetime.

The morning came in a blink on an eye, he's not beside me anymore. Kinapa ko ang tabi at wala na rin siya roon, isiniksik ko na lang ang sarili sa kumot.