Forever Agape [FS#1]

UNTIL THEN, USE ME

C h a p t e r  18

Kinapa ko ang kanyang kamay at tinanggal iyon sa aking baywang, umayos ako ng upo at pinanood siyang isalin ang wine sa sarili niyang baso. He surely knows how to tame me, to rule me. Sa isang haplos, sa isang titig at sa isang malamyos na boses, kaya niya akong pataubin. Na kahit ipikit ko ang mata, kusang bumubukas iyon para malinaw na makita na gusto ko siya.

"I apologize for that, Tita, Tito. I can never let your daughter drink..." Dad laugh a little and nodded, he sipped on his wine as Hell played the wine glass on his hand. "She's young for this, mukhang matapang pa ito..."

"Mukhang hindi papatinag sa asawa si Hell, Hurricane should be threaten..." Biro ni Dad, I shook my head as I comfort myself with a glass of water. "Kung dadating ang oras na kuhanin na ng Diyos ang pinahiram niyang oras, I would die in peace knowing that you are with her."

I bit my lower lip as I felt the raging desire inside me. Sa sinabi ng aking ama ay tila sumang-ayon ang traydor kong puso ngunit malinaw na tumaliwas ang aking utak.

"Hell can be a good friend, a helping hand." Diretso kong sabi, kusang tumaas ang kilay ng aking ina at natigil naman si Dad. "Can you give up this one, your urge. At least, to save my sanity?"

"Hurricane..." Tawag ni Hell. Nilunok ko ang kabang naramdaman sa tingin nina Daddy, he sipped in his wine as he rested his back on his chair.

Tumayo si Mommy, ibinaba niya ang table napkin sa mesa at inayos ang suot na blusa. Hilaw ang naging ngiti nito, halatang hiya na lang kay Hell ang natitira para hindi niya ako masigawan.

"Mag-uusap tayo, if this is the reason why you're acting like that, then I think I have to cut your horns. It's been growing a lot lately, huh?"

"Yes, I think we should talk because I have a lot to say... obsession leads us here, don't you think, Mom?"

I stood up with all the courage that I have. I felt how Hell caress my elbow, as if he was telling me to calm down. Hindi rin nagtagal ang saya sa mukha ng aking ina dahil agad kong tinapos iyon. Kung kanina ay nakukuha niya pang tumawa at tila kinalimutan na ang nangyari sa aming tawag, ngayon ay hindi na.

"Aeryn, sit down." Ma-awtoridad na utos ni Daddy, but of course, Mom cannot be ruled. "Nakakahiya kay Hell, makakarating ito kay Paul at ano na lang ang magiging reaksyon niya..." Tumayo si Daddy at tinabihan ang aking ina na matalim ang tingin sa akin.

"Your daughter is something lately, hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari sa anak natin! She's too... She's being aggressive, it is not just her..."

"Just because I kept my silence for months doesn't mean I agree with this! I don't have any plans and I think the Laurette's should know this or you're giving them false hope!"

Nang wikain ko iyon ay mabilis pa sa kidlas ang naging pagtayo ni Hell, hinawakan nito ang aking palapulsuan at agad akong inilayo sa mesa. Hinarang niya ang katawan upang hindi ko makita ang mga magulang, sobrang lapit niya sa akin na tila gusto niya na lang akong kulungungin sa bisig.

"Hurricane, let's talk about this calmly..." He whispered, he caress my cheeks with his right hand as he snaked his hand around me. "Please don't shout, okay? Things won't be settled by shouting..." Hinawakan niya ang aking ulo at ipinatong iyon sa kanyang dibdib.

"Sa tingin mo ay maayos ito kung bubulong lang tayo?" Kinalas ko ang kanyang kamay, hindi ko alam kung ilang beses ko na bang ginawa iyon ngayong gabi. He looked at me, pleading. He wants me to stop, he wants to go home.

Gumilid ito at hinayaan akong harapin ang mga magulang, lumapit ako sa hapag upang makausap sila. Mommy still sharply looked at me.

"This will be the last time we're going to talk about this. And for the last time, I'm telling you, you don't have any hope to pull out from this. Not even an ounce of it."