Manan - Monster's star

14~ Nandini my shining star

Heyyy cuties!!! As promised ! I've got this much awaited chapter for youuuu!!! I know all you guys have been waiting for manik to face reality and learn the truth about his connection with nandini! So here it is! Hope you like the chapter!!!

Manik somehow got the courage to get up from the ground and fix his face. He walked to Nandini's room and looked at her from the outside. He didn't have the guts to go in. He was her culprit. He blamed himself for everything. Nonetheless manik decided to go to nandini's house and inform chacha chachi about her condition. He asked the nurses to take good care of nandini until he was back. On the way to nandini's house, manik kept crying. He kept recalling all the moments he spent with her. He got to her house and realized it was locked. He looked around for a key and didn't find one. Mback to his jeep when he saw a lady walking to nandini's house and opening the door. The lady was nandini's maid. Manik rushed to her and asked her about nandini's family. The maid told him that chacha chachi and nandini's brother had gone to look at properties and that they wouldn't be back until later that night. Manik allows himself into nandini's house and looks at the sweet home she stayed in. It was concise but it had a homely feel. There were pictures of nandini with her chacha chachi, ams and her parents on the wall including he childhood photos . But Manik hadn't noticed them yet. Manik asked the maid where nandini's room was and she took him to nandini's room. He entered the room. It was cute and comfy. She had butterflies stuck on the wall. Cute pink and white curtains he remembered seeing the day he called her downstairs. Her cute pillows. Every nook and corner of the room smelt like her. It gave him the feeling that nandini was near. Suddenly he turns around and is shocked to see something.
He sees a jar of fireflies on her beside table. Manik hadn't seen fireflies after he had gotten separated from taara. The jar made him emotional. He sat on her bed staring at him and teared up. He was vulnerable. On one had he was losing nandini and on the other he had lost his Taara. Manik kept the jar back in it's place and found a few diaries next to it. They looked thick as though someone had written a lot in it. Manik was tempted to look through them. He knew he found find out everything about Nandini if he did so but he didn't consider himself worthy enough to know and read it. Manik kept one of the diaries he picked up back on the table and walked around in restlessness. He was curious beyond belief to read nandini's diary...though he knew it was morally wrong. He gave up and walked out of the room and decided to leave a note for chacha chachi to contact him when they were back. He got to the living room and sat down on one of the sofas. He got out a notepad from the side table and started to write.
"Dear uncle and aunty,
My name's manik, i study at space with nandini. Please contact me to know where nandini is. It would be better we we talked face to face.
Here's my number for you: ***************"
He put the pen down and sat back and looked around the room until his eyes fell upon one picture. A picture that made the floor flip below his feet. Manik saw a picture of nandini & rishab as a baby with her parents and ams. To him that was picture of Taara, his Taara! Manik couldn't believe what he saw. He moved closer to the picture and touched it's frame. He felt nandini's face on the glass. Tears made their way out of his eyes. Manik suddenly realized something. The fireflies, the picture, the way she talks, her smile, her eyes they all connected her to one person Taara... he had only one way on confirming his doubts. He ran upstairs to her room at the speed of lightening. Rushed to open nandini's diaries. He reached the room and picked up one of the diaries and what he saw next made him fall to the ground. He saw the locket he had given her on the first page. He took the locket in his palm with tears in his eyes. He looked at the diary once again and saw a picture of her as a kid on the front. He caressed the photo smiling slightly. He saw a picture of him and Nandini as kids on the first page. She had written
" Dear Manu,
Today was the worst day of my life, today i lost you...but i promise you it's jot forever! I know we'll meet again. I promise to write to you everyday. You'll always be remembered and thought of until the stars shine and the fireflies glow. I miss you already. Please come back. I wanted to tell you my name today... i never bothered revealing it because i was so used to you calling me taara... you made me your star and i wanted to remain being it. My name's nandini... nandini murthy... but i promise no matter what happens, no matter how long it's been ,i'll always be the same, i'll always be your taara.
Love- your taara."
There were stained dry tears drops on page indicating that she cried while writing this. He turned the page over and and it was dated to the day they had separated. Nandini had written every single day since they got separated. Every little thing she experienced, every pain she went through, every little joy, anything and everything she did. She had thought of him all along, she made sure he was a part of it. Manik's eyes were tearing up non stop.
Manik fell spend the whole evening reading through all her diaries one by one. Crying through most of them. By the end of it, it was nearly midnight. Manik was a complete mess. He put down the last diary and rested his bed back on her bed. His eyes were red and swollen. His hair was messy, Clothes shabby, He body was senseless. He felt empty. His heart was broken. He couldn't even rejoice at the thought of finally finding his taara. He thought of all the times he hurt her, ignored her. He thought of how she was insulted by alia and mukti in lonavla. He thought of their kiss, her proposal, her words of comfort when he talked about his life that day in the store room. The whole time his taara was with him and he couldn't even recognize her. And today as she confessed her love to him, he rejected it and landed her in a hospital fighting for her life. Manik felt pain beyond limit. He didn't know what to do. Manik walked around the room and opened her cupboard, took her top and hugged it tightly to feel her scent. He took all her diaries as much as he could handle and fell to the ground crying hugging them. Apologizing to the thin air. He suddenly realised that nandini was still at the hospital. He put the diaries down and took her picture in hand and kisses it.
M- i promise nandini i'll fix everything ab se no more tears no more heartbreaks. I love you.
Manik drove to the hospital as fast as he could.
He looked messy, dirty and sick, he didn't care what people thought anymore, only nandini mattered to him. He walked into nandini's room to find her attached to an oxygen mask. Manik called out for the doctor, more screamed out than call. The doctor arrived.
M- what happened to her, use..use oxygen mask kyun pehnaya hai? Kya hua use?
Manik asked a series of questions without catching breath.
Doc- mr malhotra please calm down, you look ill, aap theek ho?
M- shut up! This is not about me, meri nandini ko kya hua tha doctor? He yelled in anger and worry.
Doc: aap jane ke baad she managed to wake up, she didn't find you and started panicking. Her heart was racing faster than normal, humne use injection dilwa ke normal kiya hai, she was under a lot of stress even at that unconscious state. Please take care of her.
Manik froze and looked at nandini who looked pale and weak. He teared up once again.
M- dekh kuch bhi karke theek karo meri nandini ko! I swear agar use kuch bhi hua i will kill you!
He yelled holding the doctors collar. Manik got stopped by a few nurses there.
Doc: mr malhotra i understand your state but pls calm down, yeh ek hospital hai.
M- i don't care!! Get it?! I need her to be okay.
Doc- we're trying mr. malhotra don't worry we'll do our best. I'll let you be with her.
The doctor leaves and manik comes to nandini and sits by her bedside. He holds her hand, which is cold and weak now, he kisses it. He gets up and kisses every inch of her face multiple times. He lies on the bed next to her and looks at her lovingly.
M- for the past 10 years i've waited for this day to come, where i'd be with you, holding your hand. And now i can't even be happy about finding you taara.... i mean nandini, he said smiling hopelessly. You kept me in your mind and heart every single day, for every single moment i. The past 10 years. You kept our memories alive. How can you be so good? How? I don't deserve you nandini.... maine tumhe sirf hurt kiya hai....I'm sorry nandini, for every time i hurt you, i know you can probably never forgive me, i don't want you to either. I deserve pain.... pain in turn for the pain I've caused you. I love you so much nandini, more than words can say.... i've always loved you.... please don't do this to me, please don't leave me once again. I need you.... we'll get through this together i promise. Please come back to me? Please Nandini.... please my star... you promised you would always shine for me until the stars shine and the fireflies glow.... you can't break your promise. Please come back...
he said hugging her tightly crying his eyes out.

Precap: fab 5 comes to know the truth, nandini learns about her disorder.