Childhood Memories

12

Mae

The night sky fills the pitch black with a million dancing stars. They twinkle in the dark, illuminating the area. The moon is full and glows, cascading light onto the bare ground.

I perch myself on the decks wooden railing, just gazing at the sky. This week has been something, it's been stuffed with drama and happiness and hurt. Everything you can think of.

This year is my last year of camp before I move to Kansas, one I'll definitely remember. It's also my first camp with Carson since we've been "broken up".

It's been hard at points, having to always be there next to him and then my stupid eyes just have to glance around for him at times. It just kills me, it absolutely kills me that I still like him but he doesn't return the feeling.

"Mae?" A familiar voice cracks the silence.

I know the deep sound all too well, "what are you doing here, Carson?"

He walks over next to me, leaning over the deck to look down. Then his gaze lands on me again.

"Well I was coming out here to think but then I saw you and wanted to talk."

I shake my head, "you know I don't want to do that."

"Mae, please. You are so not the same and it hurts." He begs.

"Yeah, like you know what it feels like to have pain." I bite.

"Wh - what are you talking about?"

"You have this amazing girlfriend that you love. She loves you back and everything in your world is perfect because of it. So don't come to me thinking you know everything about hurt."

He scoffs, "Mae, I'm sorry. What will it take to become your best friend again?"

"You can't."

"Mae, I will always have this part of me that will love you, whether you believe it or not. You make me who I am and that's all because of what we had." He explains frantically.

I furiously blink back tears, "Carson, please. You know you don't. Stop saving me from things that I don't need saving from. That's not your place anymore."

We stay quiet as the crickets chirp in the background. I swallow a big sob, one that cries out to be heard.

"I'm sorry Mae." He whispers then shuffles away.

I watch him disappear in the dark, the tears now spilling. I cry for who knows how long. Just me and the moon.

Everything that was once together and perfect is ruined and it's so hard to patch it up again.

I sit there and sob in the night, all because of a boy and the way I still feel.

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Hey everyone! Long time since I've chatted with y'all. Anyways, I just wanted to mention this chapter was a little different, perspective wise.

This entire chapter was dedicated to the past when Mae and Carson went to camp together one time. And it just gives you some info and details on how Mae feels about everything up to the present.

Thanks again guys! Love you❤️