Broken Promises (MayWard) - Completed

Chapter 6

Edward's​ POV
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Are they kissing!? Seriously?!

I literally forgot was I was about to do. Natulala ako. I was stoned for seconds. I wasn't sure, pero it seems like they are. The guy's holding her face, and . . . I don't know! I can only see the guy's back. Am I this delusional already?!

Wait.

Does it matter? Again, who cares, right?! I should keep on telling that to myself a lot more.

It's ironic, to be honest. My mind's telling me to not care at all, kasi I'm not involved. But a voice seem to say that I should, or maybe I am. Maybe, I do care.

Really?! Why would I? I don't get it. I guess, I'll just leave it that way. So deceiving.

I entered the comfort room, and I stared at myself in the mirror. I washed my face just to feel refreshed a bit. Baka I'm daydreaming lang, diba? Pero, whenever I close my eyes, or even when my mind lags for a moment, that certain scenario replays. Did it really happen the way I thought? Or kakaiba lang talaga imagination ko?

That scenario again. Again, Edward.

How many times would I assume things about Maymay? I feel sorry, but it's really easy for me to think about her like that. And, it sucks 'cause I know she's a different type of girl. She's not like that but the idea keeps on boggling my mind. Psshh! It's Allen's​ fault that I became this freak over these types of stuff. Badtrip! I just shook my head nalang.

One thing's for sure, I'm doomed! Why does she always occupy my mind? I should be angry at her in the first place. I'm​ starting to hate yung set-up namin. I'm wondering, bakit ba ako pumayag to these agreements?! I'm helpless. I couldn't even react frankly to her face 'cause it's also part of the rules. I mean, sometimes I break promises, but just sometimes when I think it's reasonable.

Tsk.

Level 2, Rule #4: No to senseless arguments! Wag OA uy! Usap muna dapat.

Eto nanaman. I'm not even sure if we're fighting. Wala naman siyang sinabi that she's mad. Maybe I just assumed? Who knows, baka she went somewhere else that's why she didn't go to school? Right. Maybe, maybe she isn't angry at all. Baka ako lang nag-iisip nun. And, ako lang talaga ang galit because of what I saw last night.

Tama. Okay, ako lang to.

I didn't get angry about her being inside my room, at all. I actually planned letting her come here narin dapat to let her know a lot of things about me. Yun nga lang, I saw that she was about to see the picture frame I put upside down. I don't want her to see what's in there. It's just that, I'm not somehow ready yet. I don't wanna tell side stories about that. I was triggered seeing her gesture, so the only thing na naisip ko was to get her attention right away.

Now I'm starting to realize, I should say sorry. But how? I want to do it now na. I'm sure, if not tonight, I won't be able to sleep nanaman. Shall I wait for that guy to leave? I can't stand explaining through text messages. I prefer talking to her in person. I just feel more comfortable like that.

"Edward? Are you there?" Someone's knocking at the door while I'm still inside the comfort room. I remember, I didn't go downstairs pala to ask Mom whoever's this guy inside my room.

"Yes. Wait." I said in response. I still couldn't distinguish kung kaninong boses yun. Weird.

I opened the door and saw who the 'freak' was, and it's Kuya Luke pala, my cousin. Didn't expect him to be here! Not disappointed. Tagal na rin namin hindi nagkita.