A Storm In Mind

Chapter 16 - Realisation

I sat rocking on my bed, trying to take it all in. "I'm going to a mental hospital" I sobbed, that's all I kept thinking. I sobbed and sobbed. Chris came to see me again.

"Hiya Ryan," he started, I just ignored him.

"I know you're angry, scared, confused Ryan; I understand it, it's natural. I wondered if you wanted to ask me anything?" He continued.

I tried ignoring him again.

"The more you hold it all in Ryan, the harder it will be, let people help you." Chris said gently.

"How do you know what it's like? Or how I feel?" I snapped at him,

"I don't know. That's the truth, but I've supported enough young people in similar circumstances Ryan." He continued,

"You ever been locked up against your will? Have people make decisions about your life without asking?" I questioned, he didn't respond "NO, Thought not!" I snapped.

"I just want you to know I'm here, if you have any questions." He said and left.

I still sat on my bed, cradling my knees into my chest. Later, Matt came to see me with Mike.

"Hiya Ryan, I guess I'm the last person you want to see, but, I've come to let you know what's going to be happening." He started,

"Well I'm not fucking listening!" I snapped at him,

"Ryan!" Mike scolded,

"It's okay Mike," Matt interrupted, "We've managed to get you a bed locally, just a few miles away from home. You'll be transferring tomorrow afternoon. It's only for assessment Ryan, please, try to work with us, for your own sake." He continued, but I just kept my head turned away from him,

"Not listening, I'm not listening, I'm not listening" I kept muttering over and over...and then it started; HIM, only this time he was laughing at me, and I was sweating, shaking, crying out

"Leave me, you did this, what kind of father are you, why do you want to ruin my life, what did I ever do to you??" I screamed, but then, it all went black.