I heard shouting; that was the first thing I heard. I didn't recognise anything. I was in a basic room, and I looked around but, my body ached, my eyes are stinging, and my head hurts. I was sweaty and smelly and I was just wearing a hospital gown. I had some woman in my room
"Hello Ryan, I'm Jade, I'm one of the nurses" she smiled,
"I need a shower" was all I said,
"No worries, but, you'll have to accompanied" she said.
"By Who?" I was repulsed
"A male nurse" Jade said.
"What do you think I'm going to do?" I questioned,
"It's procedure!" and then that's when it hit me' this was it; this was the mental hospital!
I had my first meeting with my key worker today, Jim. Apparently, I've been in here for a week! I had no idea. Jim said I'd been in a bad way when I got here, 'in crisis' he said so I'd been monitored and assessed in the psychiatric intensive care unit.
"I don't remember anything." I said softly.
"That's quite normal Ryan; not to remember; but now you're a little bit better, we can move forward and start to treat you."
"Wh, what's wrong with me? Am I mad" I asked, not really wanting to hear Jim's reply.
"No Ryan, you're not mad, the Psychiatrist Matt, he's been overseeing your care and he's diagnosed Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder" he said.
"What's that?" I sighed,
"It's long term effects of severe or repeated trauma. It affects your personality, identity, memory, moods and emotions" He explained.
"So can I get better, or is this just how I am now?" I asked
"No Ryan, you can get better, it'll take time, but you will recover." Jim said.
My eyes started to fill up, I was kind of relieved in a strange way; maybe the old Ryan is still in there somewhere.
"You'll start with 1:1 talking therapy combined with different behaviour therapies and art and music," Jim said.
"So how long am I going to be in hospital?" I asked
"Not sure yet, but we're always working towards discharge, so it's important that you use this time to really kickstart your recovery."
"When can I see Mike?" I asked Jim,
"We'll sort something out, now try to get some rest?" he said gently,
"Yeah, I am pretty tired." I acknowledged as he left.
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A Storm In Mind
FanfictionA story based on the character Ryan Reeves from the Dumping Ground. Ryan has always been trouble, ever since he entered the dumping ground. What makes him so rebellious and yet so vulnerable? This story follows Ryan's own emotional journey, will he...
