What If You Need Me (Sequel Yesterday's Devil)

Chapter 26

Jongin

"What are you thinking of?" Kyungsoo questioned as he looked up at me with a small smile.

I pulled the sheets a bit higher over our bodies before rolling onto my side so I could look at him. "About everything that happened these past days."

"Do you wanna talk about it?" He snuggled closer into my body and started drawing circles on my bare chest with his finger.

I shook my head, "not really." I moved my hand to his chin and tilted it so I could press a kiss on his lips. "I don't wanna think about it," I spoke breathless.

His hands were roaming all over my body and it left me wondering what I was thinking about. He made me forget everything.
I kissed him again and this time he pushed me down onto to bed so he could crawl on top of me. He pulled back for a brief moment and whispered, "we have something to catch up with."

I blushed lightly but tried to cover it up by pulling him down to crash my lips onto his. He moaned loudly and started sucking on my lip, but I pulled back. "Kyungsoo."

He looked at me, sensing my seriousness. "Yes?"

"We do need to talk though." I pushed myself in a sitting position so I could rest my back against the headboard while holding Kyungsoo in my arms. "It wasn't Jungsu's idea."

"Talking about Jungsu, I think it's weird how he's family of you, but treated you like that." He frowned and looked at me with a worried expression.

"He's not really family," I mentioned. "Step cousin."

"I know." His eyes drifted away from mine and looked around the room. "Still."

I wondered how he knew but decided not to ask him. "We've always been like that. He being the stronger one since I was young. He liked to pick on me and also hurt me physically. My dad and he had a good relationship, which doesn't surprise me at all. I guess assholes attract each other."

Kyungsoo focused back on me to show me he was listening, but his expression was a mix of emotions I couldn't figure out. He send me a small smile before his face went back to the mask he always wore when he didn't want me to know his emotions.

"You probably noticed my behavior when we first... Well had... Sex." My cheeks tinged pink as I thought back at that moment, which somehow turned me shy.
I dared to look at Kyungsoo who nodded, a frown on his face.

"Jungsu... He..." I stopped talking and ran a hand down my face. I sighed deeply before continuing. "You weren't my first. I've done it once before and it wasn't my choice... He..."

"Are you trying to say what I think you are?" Kyungsoo asked calmly, much to my surprise.
I bit my lip and nodded, too ashamed to look at him.

"Jungsu was your first?" He asked to confirm his thoughts and I nodded again. "I... I didn't wa... want it." I stammered as I felt hot tears sliding down my cheeks. I tried to wipe them away, but they just kept falling.
I squinted my eyes closed and a sob escaped my mouth.
Suddenly I felt a pair of lips pressed against my cheek and a voice I had missed so much. "Shh, Jongin. Don't cry, love."

I opened my eyes and stared at the gorgeous round ones of the person I loved the most. He smiled at me and wiped my tears away with his thumb. "That doesn't count baby. It only counts when love's involved. So I am still your first and I will always be."

I reached out and pulled his head against my chest, hugging him tightly. "I love you so much, Kyungsoo."

"I love you more." Kyungsoo's voice was muffled by my chest, but his words clear.

"There's just one thing you should know," I said as I remembered it.

"What is it?" He lifted his head to look at me.

"It was my mother's idea. She wants Jungsu to kill you."

We both looked up from a knock on the door and Kyungsoo pulled fully away, searching for his clothes that were scattered around the floor and no comment was made on my sentence.

Kyungsoo

"So what you are saying is that my sister and her boyfriend did this because Jongin's mother wants you dead." Lay summarized.

"That's pretty much It." I slumped down into the chair as I watched Lay tapping a pen against his chin.

"It's weird," Lay remarked under his breath. He leaned forward and typed something in on his computer, head slightly tilted. It remembered me of the time Dongsun had forced me to see a psychiatrist. I was probably the biggest brat she'd ever dealt with. I think I had given her a hard time as the ignorant piece of shit I was, and still sometimes. Thinking about it now made me realise she was a very sweet woman and very patient.

"You there?" Lay asked while snapping his fingers in front of my face.

"Yes." I looked at him and noticed his expression had become harder. "What's wrong?"

"I don't understand what I am doing wrong. I am trying my best to protect her and I didn't even know she has a boyfriend." He shook his head and typed something else on his keyboard. "I'm failing miserably."

I decided not to tell him what Xiumin and I did to his sister. He would probably freak out. "Thanks for letting us stay by the way."

"It's nothing." He waved with his hand. "How's the other dude doing? Baek... Baek something."

I looked down at my hands, "I don't know."

"What do you mean?" Lay looked at me in surprise. "He's your friend right?"

"Yes, but they are all angry." I wiped some imaginary crumbles off my jeans and sighed. "I brought them in this mess."

Lay pursed his lips, "true."

"Thanks, I'm feeling much better now." I spoke sarcastically. "You remind me of Kris."

Lay glared at me and I flashed him a fake smile. "Anyway, you can go back to your baby boy now. I think we know everything the other knows."

I nodded in agreement and stood on my feet. Pain shot from my butt through to my back and I groaned.
Lay eyed me up and down and watched how I made my way to the door, feeling the pain getting worse the more I moved.

"I see you had a busy night," he remarked with a grin. "Luckily no one's sleeping next to your room."

I turned around to face him, cheeks burning red. "Shut up!" I hissed before heading out as quickly as I could.