What If You Need Me (Sequel Yesterday's Devil)

Chapter 28

Kyungsoo

"Are you sure this is a good idea?" Jongin crept up behind me and grabbed my arm. He was looking around the store like a tiger would jump out of the racks filled with groceries and attack him.
I tried to free my arm from his firm grip, but all he did was let his other hand join too.
I sighed, "you were the one not wanting to stay home. I told you I'd go, but you refused."

"That's because I don't want you to be alone out here," Jongin turned his face to look at me and bit his lip.

"I'm not a kid, baby." I started walking again and Jongin followed my steps. "I think I am pretty capable of protecting myself."

"Still," he kept insisting. "I'd rather have you close now." He finally let me go but immediately snaked one arm around my waist and pressed a kiss on my cheek.
A light shade of pink decorated my cheeks as I noticed people were looking at us. "Jongin, we're in public."

"So?" He furrowed his eyebrows and I felt his hand lift my shirt up a bit to touch the skin underneath it. I quickly slapped his hand away and pulled my shirt down again, "Jongin!"

"Remember that time when we ate pizza?" He chuckled before removing his arm. "You didn't seem bothered with other people."

"That was then," I grabbed some yoghurt packages and placed them in the cart. Jongin eyed them before rolling his eyes and earning a glare from me.

"So what changed?" Jongin asked. "Are you ashamed of me now?"

"What?" I asked confused. "Of course not. I just don't want you to be uncomfortable."

"Right." He walked a bit further and I wondered if I had hurt his feelings and should do something about it or let it be. I pursed my lips and leaned on the cart, slowly walking further down the isle. A small smirk appeared on my face as I watched how he bend over to get something that was lying in the lowest rack.
I walked closer and slapped his ass, "looking good babe."

Jongin stood straight again and looked at me with big eyes while blushing madly.
I chuckled and walked further, not bothering to look back at the people who noticed it. At that moment I realized this is how I wanted my life to be. Buying groceries together was one of the simplest things in life that people took for granted and I loved it cause Jongin was there with me.

I looked back to see why Jongin wasn't following me and was just in time to see he dropped the package he was holding while staring at something. I looked in front of me again and saw the reason why he had acted that way. His mother was looking at some food so I guessed she hadn't noticed us. Without thinking I rushed to Jongin's side and grabbed his hand, pulling him with me. As we turned the corner I looked over my shoulder and saw she had noticed us. I cursed softly while pulling Jongin with me through the aisles, forcing him to keep walking. He was slightly shaking and murmuring things so I was afraid he would break down.

Once we were out of the shop I started running. Somehow it made me think of when I was running away from Jongin's mother's house when she recognized me as the killer of her husband. It made me feel nauseous and I had to stop to lean against a wall. I closed my eyes and opened them until I wasn't dizzy anymore.
Soft crying sounds caught my attention and when I looked up I noticed Jongin was covering his face with his hands.
I let go of the wall and hugged Jongin, pressing his body close against my own. "Don't cry Nini."

"I'm a... Afraid Soo..." He whispered. "I don't want to go back there."

"You are not. I can promise you that." I bit my lip while rubbing his back to comfort him. "I have to be dead before that happens."

He grabbed a fist full of my shirt and pressed his face against my neck. "Please don't let me go."

"I won't. You can trust me on this. I know I brought you into this but I'm never gonna let you get hurt again." I assured him and pressed a kiss against his temple. "I love you more than I love myself Jongin. I would die for you."

"I know." Jongin took a shivery breath. "You told me."

I blinked in surprise, "I can't remember telling you that."

"I never told you, but I could hear everything you said to me when I was in the hospital." Jongin spoke softly as he pulled a bit back to look into my eyes. "At first when I found out what you've done to my... Father, I was angry and frustrated. What did I do to deserve this? To me it felt like the world just didn't want me to be happy. But then I remembered something I've once read and I realized it wasn't something bad. I just had to see through the things you've done. You aren't a bad person. What you did to him made me free again."

"Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift." I whispered while thinking back at the moment the doctor had told me Jongin was gone and gave me the book.

Jongin nodded. "When Jungsu came to get me out of the hospital he told me that if I didn't participate he would hurt my mother." He wiped the tears away before continuing. "Just a stupid lie it turned out to be."

"I still can't believe it." I sighed and shook my head.

Jongin glanced at me before looking down again. "I wanted to tell you I still loved you but Jungsu was checking what I wrote and he wouldn't allow me to write that, so I underlined a poem and hoped you'd get the clue."

I chuckled softly before cupping his face and kissing his lips gently. His hands rested on my waist as he rubbed the skin with his thumbs. Once he pulled back he pressed his forehead against mine with his eyes still closed.

"I love you Jongin and I promise you we're getting out of this mess together."