Jinmin SF|OS

열일곱

"You .. you can't be serious .. you're- joking , right ?" Jimin asked , barely audible , his words broken up to stop himself from choking and losing his composure. His vision became distorted , tears threatening to fall as he looked in front -Seokjin's eyes. Those eyes that he had called perfect. Those eyes that he lost himself in. Eyes that looked at him , just that morning , with so much affection , soft and tender and full of love. Not blank and empty. Never that. Jimin's breathing became more faster , the heat was crawling onto his cheeks and his eyes stung.

He pressed his tear-streaked face against his palms. "You ! After all those years !" he sobbed , finally breaking down. He felt a hand on his shoulder but shrugged it off ,"don't .. don't touch me !" The brunette wiped his face furiously with the sleeve of his sweater , not wanting to look pathetic.

"Jimin , let's talk at home , okay ?" Seokjin asked , his voice soft as he didn't wanna upset the younger more.

Home ! Jimin sobbed , hysterical. The elder one had no idea. Right now , a public toilet was more like home than the one they shared. Heck , he could even settle at the bus stop ! It just has too much memories , too many moments that could live forever in that apartment. Jimin didn't wanna go back , not when all those years of loving were gone and meaningless by less than an hour. He didn't wanna go home to leave traces of them arguing , it would be too easy to remember.

"Please , I don't want to lose you.. are you going to leave ?" Jimin asked , his voice raising higher the more he asked. Seokjin was frozen on the spot , his mouth open but no words came out. "Jimin , it's no-"

"Then what is it ?!" Jimin screamed , gaining attention from people around them but he didn't care , he was losing the love of his life right here , right now and all he wants to do is to win him back , to keep him forever and fulfill the promises that they made , the wedding vows they practiced and the list of things they would do together.

He clutched Seokjin - so cold and remote now, so far away. He couldn't reach him there. He sobbed into Seokjin's shirt, staining them with sadness. He knew that the other would continue to grow colder, would soon begin to disappear altogether. This is what they thought they would never have, but finally did. Jimin felt warm hands patting his back ,"let's go home , jagi."

Jimin gazed out of the window , sitting at the passenger seat with the seat belt on. He wasn't allowed to drive due to his state which was probably for the best because he would've drove right straight into another vehicle that was on the other lane. His eyes were red and puffy and the sniffles from his nose filled the air.

"Is this it?" The younger asked , his voice cracking at the end. Seokjin's knuckles turned white and let out a long , heavy sigh. "I just .. don't want you to get hurt."

"I'm sorry I flared up .." he mumbled , curling up into a ball.

"It's my fault , Jimin." Seokjin said , eyes still on the road.

"How can it be your fault ? It's not like you planned it to happen .." The brunette said , looking at the raven beside him. All the other could do was squeak a reply and he looked out again , not wanting to worsen the situation anymore. He blinked , eyes rusty from the crying he did. He tried to keep them open , using his fingers to help him but he's had a long day and soon , he slipped into a deep slumber. There was no way he was gonna lose his other half , he's been searching for the one and finally came across his hyung who cared for him ever since they were trainees. At first he thought he was just feeling lonely since they had a dating ban but after that was lifted , he hadn't feel the need to talk to girls or anyone , all he wanted was to be with his Seokjin hyung and kiss him till their lips got sore.

Once Seokjin parked the car , he stepped out for a bit to stretch before going round the car to Jimin's side , unfastening his seatbelt and carrying the other on his back. Jimin gave a soft sigh and clung onto the other tighter , his eyes still closed. Sure it was troublesome but both of them didn't mind , in fact , Seokjin liked carrying the brunette. The elder jumped a little bit , carrying the younger higher on his back and locked the car with a press of a button , sliding it back in his pocket before proceeding to the lift lobby to get to their apartment.