Jinmin SF|OS

서른하나

Vendetta
where's my mind

Jimin sat on the edge of his bed in darkness , the moon being the only source of light. His breathing was slow and heavy , all he wanted to do was cause a havoc. Closing his eyes to contain himself , his hands formed into fists and his shoulders became tense. He felt a sudden presence in front of him and fingers were circling around his knuckles , lightly massaging them. Moving to the palms , his hand was kneaded thoughtfully , slow , strong strokes were made and before he knew it , his own hands fell limp , fingers uncurling from the tightened up fist he was making. Hands slowly traveled up to his shoulders , circling to and fro before moving onto his nape. He released a slow exhale , his brows were no longer furrowed. The raven was wrapped in warmth , soft kisses being pressed onto his jaw and cheek.

Jimin's whole body relaxed and a soft , painful smile was placed on his lips,"I'm fine now , Seokjin-ah."

Opening his eyes , he was greeted by the plain white wall , his hands shining with a brilliant red. Eyes widening , he rubbed his hands on his shirt , panicking when it stained. Running to the bathroom , he haphazardly turned on the light switch and made a bee-line to the sink , yanking the faucet and washing his hands. His vision was stained red but in reality , he was washing off nothing. A splash of cold water to his face and he trudged back to the room , droplets of water dripping from his face.

With a flick of the switch , the room was lit and his eyes immediately went to the lump on the bed.

No , he thought , as he cautiously approached the bed , hand touching the blanket before holding it tightly and giving it a sharp tug , throwing it onto the floor. Jimin's eyes softened once he heard the grunt coming from the blonde that laid in the bed ,  his body instinctively going into a fetal position as the blanket was ripped off of him.

Eyes tired , he croaked,"—jimin ? What's wrong ?"

"N-Nothing .. I just—" he abruptly stopped , picking up the blanket again with a squelch.

A squelch ?

Jimin looked at his hands and found the blanket drenched with blood. In dismay , he dropped the item he was holding and jumped onto the bed , turning his lover's body to the side so that he was laying on his back.

"Seokjin ?"

The blonde rubbed his eyes before sitting up , caressing Jimin's cheek,"what's going on ?"

Doing a double-take at the blanket on the floor and on his hands , Jimin gave a sigh of relief as he tucked the blonde back in before turning off the lights , slipping under the covers at his side of the bed.

Frowning , Seokjin rested his head at the curve of Jimin's neck ,"are you okay ?"

"Yeah—yeah .. just– shaken."

Seokjin laced his fingers around his beloved's raven strands , smiling as he was peppered with small kisses and quick pecks.

"What's on your mind ?" Seokjin asked , still continuing to plant kisses on the younger male. His lover was behaving strangely and he looked like he just finished running a marathon.

"Nothing." The raven replied , stopping the taller male from moving before pressing their lips together for a hasty kiss. Jimin smiled , making Seokjin kiss more teeth than lips,"ugh , no one likes to kiss teeth , Jimin."

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Jimin remembers last night crystal clear as he floated on the pool , Seokjin sunbathing on a unicorn float as he read a magazine and sipped iced tea.

I'm happy , Jimin thought as he smiled at the sight.

Kill him.

The raven furrowed his brow as he scratched his ear and shook his head,"no!"

Sitting  up on the float , Seokjin looked over to his lover, "what's wrong ? Water in your ear ?"

Save him.
You love him don't you ?

"I do." Jimin whispered , slowly sinking down to the pool again

So kill him.

Swimming over , Seokjin smiled and pushed up his sunglasses on his head , leaning over the float to meet Jimin. Once he resurfaced , the blonde took a hold of his face before pressing a soft kiss onto Jimin's wet , chlorinated lips.

The shorter male pulled his lover into the pool with him , hugging him tightly.

"Yah ! Why did you pull me in !" Seokjin shouted , struggling to get away from Jimin with a smile on his face.

Panic flashed on his face when he was suddenly pushed underneath the surface , the raven's face was nothing but a messy blotch of colors through the water. Jimin's hands were pressing on his neck and his legs were keeping him anchored. Lungs burning , Seokjin's mouth gave way and he swallowed the pool water , his vision already starting to blur.

Jimin stopped trying when he felt the body in his hands fall limp , showing no signs of resistance as the water stilled beneath him. Pulling his lover up , he squeezed the lifeless body as hard as he could , pressing a kiss onto the side of his head.

His mind in shambles , Jimin let out a cry , hot tears rolling down his cheeks.

"No," he chanted over and over , his voice cracking.

"What have I done ?" he asked himself , clinging onto his lover as his body turned cold , lips slowly turning onto a lovely shade of blue , color seeping out of his skin.

Jimin wept uncontrollably , pulling the elder onto him as if he were to merge them together , nuzzling the curve of his neck. It didn't take too long for his sadness to turn into anger , a shout escaping his lips.

You saved him.

Jimin looked at his reflection on the pool water, "no I didn't , he's gone and now I'm all alone !"

I saved him from you.

"Shut up ! Shut the fuck up ! You killed him !" He screamed , shutting his eyes tightly as his breathing was becoming quicker by the minute.

You're a monster , Jimin.

"No no—it– can't–" he stuttered in disbelief. 

It's all your fault.

Jimin plunged himself in the water again , Seokjin in his arms. He heard nothing but his own heartbeat in his ears. Opening his eyes , he saw the blonde with tiny bubbles sticking onto the surface of his skin , a peaceful look on his face. Pushing his hair back , Jimin gave his lover one last kiss before closing his own eyes , letting the water flood in his body.

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[ a/n ];

I guess October's theme is psycho ? It's quite fitting for halloween and it's merely just a coincidence ! I write these stories with a blank mind and they turn into whatever genre they want , I guess I just find comfort on writing dark topics.