𝐴𝑆𝑇𝐸𝑅𝐼𝑆𝑀; bts os

goodbye

even if something might be too beautiful to be true, too perfect to ever happen, it has to end some day. nothing lasts forever. 

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this is actually quite difficult for me to write. i have decided to end this book, close the requests. i have been writing bts oneshots for a bit more than a year, and it was great. i loved it, loved working on requests, planning my series and their continuations, watching this book grow and gain more and more readers.

i started writing on this book last year in june, when i was all over bts. you have to know that i love kpop since 2012, and 2016 was much like a "bts-year" for me. but during the past months (more like since late september), i felt myself being drawn to exo and other groups, too. exo have  always been a huge part of my life, and i grew up with them (i started listening to exo when i was 12, and i will be of legal age soon), so they mean so much to me.

i have lost passion to write on this book, as i have lost passion for being into bts, being an army. don't get me wrong, please, i just don't enjoy their music as much as before. for example, fire was an absolute bop, i love this song so much, but wings, spring day, these eras weren't my favorites. everyone was over bts, they were invited to the bbmas, everything was bts. i didn't feel so hyped about comeback news, and i felt annoyed when bts pictures were spread all over my social media.

and, the fandom. once, i was kind of proud of being an army, then the fanwars occurred, and it felt like a decision: exo or bts. exo-l or army, and i didn't want that. also, i met so many childish people who named themselves "jungkook's wife" or "jimin's hoe", which disgusted me. i know that some people see it as a joke, or don't mean to offend anyone, i am very aware of that. but, i have encountered so many people actually taking this serious, and this made me feel uncomfortable. the fandom was full of children (and yes, i do know that not 100% of the army-fandom are like this, and that people of this kind exist in pretty much every fandom, too). it is just that it plain annoyed the hell out of me.

i started writing exo oneshots, and i found myself truly and purely enjoying those. a friend requested something earlier, and i was suddenly hitting into the keyboard, writing a full 4K oneshot for her in a couple of hours—a oneshot i myself liked, which is pretty rare. my creativity was blooming, i liked the way i put words, the way i let the story unfold beneath my fingertips—something i haven't felt here for so long.

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on the other hand, i wanted to say "thank you", to all of you. i started little, with few readers, and the number grew rapidly as the months passed by. it feels like people from all over the world are reading this book here, every day.

thank you to my silent readers, who read, and read, and read, making the number grow. thank you to those who vote, expressing that they liked what i produced. thank you to the people who left comments, be it requests, comments on the story or just a "i loved it!".

thank you, _rxvxrgxrl_304, for the amount of support you gave me—simply by asking the cutest, funniest and most creative of requests. you have been here since the beginning, and gave me a lot of ideas to write these oneshots.

thank you, -. you're one of my biggest supporters, and i hope you know that. from your hyped comments whenever i dropped a chapter, to the way you accept my decisions, motivate me to keep going, saying "it's okay if you don't want to finish, i want you to enjoy it", everything. you have no idea how much i love you.

to the ones who recently started reading this book, and have now reached the very end: thank you, in advance. thank you for clicking on this book, maybe leaving reviews. 

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i never wrote to gain money. what i do here is a part of my free time, and i do it for you guys. so, i sincerely hope you enjoyed reading those oneshots, shed a tear or cracked a smile. maybe you sat in the bus or car reading them, or made yourself a tea and took your time to read them? or did you read them in a hurry, in a rush, when you were walking around in a city (like i do often)?

nonetheless, i hope i could make you happy with those words, stories and plots of mine.

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i hope my exo oneshots will become successful like this book, too; and i hope, they will receive much love and requests as well. every adventure ends some day, but—i was glad to be a part of this.

thank you.

—liv.

(an old message)