philophobia | j.hoseok

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upstairs felt a bit more roomy than downstairs. it was also a bit chilly but i didn't mind actually. there were more family photos here on shelves, some were even of hoseok when he was a child i'm guessing.

"you so do not look like yourself when you were younger," i snickered.

"you're right. i'm cuter now than i was before," hoseok laughed. i laughed with him.

"no, i think you looked cuter before." hoseok suddenly gasped. "how rude!"

i couldn't help but chuckle slightly.

"i can't believe you're actually here in my house."
"yeah... who would have known i really would have stepped foot in here."

at that point, hoseok smiled and i found it almost creepy. "hey, stop staring at me like that."

"me? i'm not staring," he said. "yes, you definitely were," i quickly said.

"what? you mean like this?" he suddenly leaned in close to me staring me down with his beady eyes. i could hear the sound of my heart thumping with some sort of excitement, i should say.

"if you're going to lean this close, you might as well just kiss me," i blurted. oh snap, haesoo, where did that come from?!

"i wish i could... but then i'm scared you might slap me," he said and then retreated away.

my face became red in embarrassment. my lips parted away slightly as i watched him move away. just admit, haesoo. you literally have fallen for him. he fulfilled his promise.

yes, i do think i've fallen for this guy.

my whole body suddenly began to sweat out of nervousness as i played out a thought in my head before i decided to make it happen. i grabbed hoseok's hand and pulled him a bit closer towards me. no matter how much my body opposed the thought, i pushed myself because i knew later on the feeling would start eating me away. i leaned up closer to him crashing my lips onto his as he was caught by such an ultimate surprise.

the feeling of his lips against mine was surreal and it made my legs feel queasy all of a sudden. in addition, the nervousness in me was still there. but i felt hoseok's hand tighten mine as we stayed like this for about 3 seconds before i pulled away quickly. i looked at him. he was speechless, and so was i.

"i-i have no idea why that happened. i'm sorry," i fumbled with my words. i was going to go back downstairs when hoseok stopped my by holding my hand tightly.

"you're going to leave me now?" he asked softly.

"i feel embarrassed," i said under my breath. i picked up my head to look at hoseok directly in the eyes. and then, that smile of his became visible. that smile i could recognize that only belonged to him.

"there's nothing to be embarrassed about... because now?... now i finally know that you do feel the same way for me,even if i had to wait for some time."

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finally–
haesoo's feelings got the best of her. and she indeed has fallen for the guy that smiled a lot.