philophobia | j.hoseok

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"surprise!" taehyung screamed scaring me slightly.

hoseok was heavily breathing just slightly in front of me as he held the bouquet of flowers in front of me. i snapped out of my thoughts.

"w-what's going on?" i asked trying to not think about what was happening.

"i'm asking you out," hoseok softly said, but slightly out of breath.

"surprise!" i hear eunbyul say. i saw her just by the boys with a smile on her face. hoseok still stood in front of me and i could sense the nervousness from him. i don't know why he was nervous, i'm here sweating like a pig. maybe because i had to give him an answer. but what is my answer?

am i really ready to be in relationship now? if i say yes now, might i finally break through my condition? maybe hoseok could be the person... to help me?

lost and confused, i met eyes with hoseok again before a feeling of guilt rose in my stomach.

"i-i have to think about it.. i can't give you an answer right now," i softly said. silence fell between us... between all of us.

"well, this is awkward..," yoongi softly said as namjoon elbowed him. "ow."

hoseok looked at me as if he was hit back to reality. "o-oh.. yeah. i-i mean, that's f-fine."

"hey... i didn't say... no, okay? don't look so sad now. it's not like you," i said to him, while giving a reasuring smile. he looked at me and a smile grew on his face. he held the bouquet of followers toward me. "i still want you to have these."

"oh.... thank you," i smiled.

"well, nontheless, we still have cake for you!" namjoon smiled as i watched eunbyul and taehyung bring it in. my eyes widened slightly.

"wow... you went out totally," i chuckled softly as i looked at hoseok who looked away embarrassingly. "your mom did help a bit. she got you to come here," jimin smiled.

i stopped think and i shook my head when i finally figured it out. "and you knew," i said to eunbyul. eunbyul smiled innocently.

"even though everything didn't go according to plan," seokjin coughed awkwardly, "still at least it wasn't complete rejection."

"oooo, that's low," yoongi said chuckling under his breath. my face slightly turned red in embarrassment.

"i'm sorry that you guys had to go through this without giving me the answer you guys hoped for.. especially hoseok... but when i'm ready, i will tell you," i softly said. i smiled as hoseok smiled back at me.

at least some things never changed.

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omg, sorry guys. first week of school has passed, but i go back to school tmmr. i've tried being on top of my game for my class homeworks. so far so good, but i'm pretty sure i've got more loads of work coming for me.

in the meantime, here's an update for you guys. im sorry once again ;-;