Making a Difference (sequel to PDA)

Ch.39: Making of a Benefit

~Albany~

I was in my room lying down because I felt nauseous and tired and i just wanted to go to sleep but I didn't want to eat anything. After the death and the funeral of Levi, I just knew I didn't want to lose this child at all. I got up from my bed and I saw my dad rocking back and forth Sawyer in his hands. I smiled at the sight, Dad handed me a plate of food my way and I just looked down at it. I couldn't eat it but I knew I had a problem that needed to be solved and fast. Dad put Sawyer down in his rocking chair. Dad sat down next to me and I just fiddled my hands a little bit. "I have a problem" I announced to dad and dad urged me to continue. "I don't want to eat dad. The sight of food makes me sick and i know it's terrible considering I'm having a kid and that could result in the death of my child" I confessed to him and Dad eyes went wide with shock. "I think I have a food problem" I continued to ramble to my dad and dad sighed while grabbing my hands. "Come on, we need to go to the hospital" Dad pushed me off the chair and took me to the hospital. I sat down on the hospital bed while doctors prodded me with questions and I told them honestly and I had to be better for this child and I knew it. I called Andy and Andy sat down next to me with his arms wrapped around my shoulder. I didn't want Andy to know but I knew my dad told him everything but it strange to see that Andy wasn't angry or blowing up a fuse in the slightest bit. He was telling me everything was being okay. "I'm glad you admitted to having problem which I think I would diagnose you with an combination of both bulimia and anorexia" The doctor told me and i just nodded my head. "I think it would be in your best interest and the child to go to outpatient treatment" the doctor suggest to me and i just nodded my head because I didn't want to be stuck in some rehab center at all. I laid my head on Andy's shoulder while they examined our child with the ultrasound. "It seems your baby is okay but we need to take extra care of you and make sure what you are doing with your eating habits is okay" The nurse smiled a little bit at me. I smiled back at her a little bit and she continued to smile at me. "Would you like to know the sex of your baby" The nurse asked us and i looked at Andy and he nodded his head yes. "Then the sex of the baby is a boy" the nurse told us and I had a huge smile on my face. "He's going to have your eyes and my nose and we are going to be the best parents ever" Andy smiled at me while we got up from the hospital after I was discharged. He was holding me tightly and I sighed. Andy left me all alone with my dad who was pacing back and forth. I knew he was blaming himself for what I was doing to myself. "Dad" I told him and Dad sighed while pacing back and forth without saying anything. "Please calm down" I told him and Dad sighed and sat down next to me. "How could this happen" dad asked me and I rubbed the back of my neck. "It started with Safire and those naked photos" I looked down at my feet not wanting to say anything. "I was being insulted for my body and I just believed those words that was said to me" I told him and dad just sighed before rushing to pick up Sawyer who was crying loudly. I took my car keys and drove to the one place I never thought I would go to. I rung the doorbell and I saw Safire standing there not saying anything. "You ruined my life" I pushed Safire over and Safire rolled her eyes. "I know that you were blackmailing Levi and guess what he's dead so you can blackmail him all the time but guess what you will be all alone all the time and when that happens, i hope you regret everything you have done and learn your lesson" I said to her and Safire mouth dropped open with shock written all over her face. I just shook my head. "What happened" Safire asked me and I just turned towards her. "Geo happened, he was drunk and ill and crashed the car. Levi died with excessive bleeding and they couldn't save him" I informed Safire before walking out of her house and I saw Safire was shaking her head in like disbelief but I couldn't blame her at all. I sighed but I knew where I was going next. I drove the at least 30 minutes and I knocked on the apartment door to see Mr. Thomas there rubbing his neck. He hadn't shaved and it looked like he stopped caring about his appearance. I knew he hasn't been in school for awhile. His clothes were crushed up and it looked like his heart was torn to pieces. I felt bad for the guy, he let me inside of his place which I must say was such a mess. "What are you doing here Albany" He asked me and I sighed. "He loved you know and I know you loved him too. You are hurting but Levi wouldn't like you breaking. He would want you to move on from your life and go make life amazing since he can't" i told him and Mr. Thomas just stared at me. "Levi told me about you guys a long time ago and Levi loved you and i know you loved him too" I said to him before leaving him all alone