The Maniac's Cold Wedded Wife (EDITING)

Eight. Glimpse.

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Eight. Glimpse.

SABRINA

 

Simula nung naging kami ni Sage, walang araw na ginawa ang Diyos na hindi kami masaya. Minsan may di kami pinagkakaintindihan pero normal lang naman yun, diba? Nag-aaway din kami over petty things at majority nun ay dahil sa’kin.

 

Di ko alam kung paano maghandle ng relationship kasi first boyfriend ko si Sage. Iniintindi niya ako na childish ako minsan at may ilang bagay (hindi material) akong hinihingi sa kanya. Para sa’kin, si Sage ang naiimagine kong perfect boyfriend. How can this seventeen’s love seem so perfect?

 

Dahil sa sobrang pagmamahal ko kay Sage, nabigay ko ng buo ang sarili ko sa kanya. Puso, utak, kaluluwa lalo na ang pagkababae ko. Si Sage ang kumumpleto sa missing piece ng buhay ko.

 

That night was romantic and magical. His touch sent shivers all over my body. It was nerve-wrecking but my love for him ruled over all feelings possible. I was hurt but I know I was loved. I trust him more than anything in this world. I realized that night, Sage is my life. He’s my oxygen. I just can’t live my life without him.

 

Hindi ko pinagsisihan na binigay ko ang sarili ko kay Sage dahil sa mga dumaan na araw mas lalo kong naramdaman na mahal nya ako. Mas lalo kong naramdaman na ako rin ang buhay niya.

 

We were on our way to our 10th month of being with each other nung unti-unting nagfade ang sweetness ni Sage. Hindi pa rin nawawala ang ‘I love you’ niya everyday pero nawawala na yung sweet gestures. All we just do is hug and a smack.

 

Where did the back hugs go? Where did the soft whispers fly? Where did the steamy kiss run? Where are the ‘corny-kilig banats’ now? Where did his romantic voice hide whenever he talks to me?

 

Inintindi ko si Sage na unti-unting nagfade ang sweetness niya sa’kin. I just understood na baka busy lang siya. I never doubted him. I never told him what I feel. I never demanded na ibalik nya yung mga ginagawa nyang sweet gestures. I don’t want to be told that I’m an overly-possessive girlfriend when in fact I want to be one.

 

Dumaan na ang ika-sampung buwan ng relasyon namin at malapit na ang debut ko. I happily invited him na siya ang escort ko and he just nodded as he received the invitation card.

 

Everytime I hold his hands, my grip was even firm than his. Nawala na ang spark na nakikita ko sa mga mata nya everytime kausap nya ako. The conversations we have with each other were cut short. I don’t understand why but all I wanna do is to know why.

 

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Sobrang busy na sa bahay kasi two weeks from now, debut ko na. Masaya ako ‘coz matutupad na ang isa sa mga all-time dreams ko. Every girls’ dream ang magkaroon ng debut party kaya sobrang saya ko dapat. Pero kulang ang saya ngayong di ko naman kasamang magprepare ang lalaking mahal ko. Ang lalaking gusto kong sumuporta sa’kin sa mga araw na ‘to.