Hopeless Romantic -- Brallon

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BBU

"Oh god. Why didn't you guys tell me in middle school?? I would've broken up with him much earlier!" Dallon whines.

Spencer shrugs. "Ryan said not to tell you, and we obeyed. He's super sensitive on the inside, everybody knows that. He really did like you though. Still does. That's why he tried so hard. In my opinion, you shouldn't change who you are to get somebody to like you."

We all nod. "True."

Dallon looks like he's thinking too much. "Hey, I'm going to the bathroom."

He leaves the table and Ryan S. and Spencer look at me. I look back with a shocked face.

"Uh... What-" I start before Ryan S. interrupts me.

"So what are you going to do about Ryan? I mean, he does have a great name, but he just barged into Dallon's life again after you finally got a chance." Ryan S. says. Spencer and him are already awaiting an answer.

"Um, maybe nothing? I don't want to be mean to Ryan or sabotage him. If Dallon really is starting to like me, everything will work out. I already know Dallon doesn't like Ryan, cause I was eavesdropping on their conversation this morning." I say, after thinking of a good answer.

Spencer nods. "Smart. But... You don't really know one of the real reasons they broke up. See, you weren't that close with Dallon because Ryan pushed you away, right?"

I nod.

Spencer continues. "Well, Dallon didn't feel comfortable with their relationship in the end. Ryan really wanted it to work, even though I think they both knew it wouldn't. We weren't even that close to Dallon, but we were his friends that he could talk to."

Ryan S. speaks up. "It was a fluffy relationship, really. It was seventh and eighth grade, and all they did was eat ice cream, hug, hold hands, and play video games. Ryan wanted to finally kiss, but Dallon didn't want to. I think he still hasn't had his first kiss."

Spencer butted in. "He doesn't want to, either. Super innocent, nerdy Dallon." He smiles.

"Actually, it's been a while, is he still in the bathroom?" Ryan S. asks.

"I'll go check on him." I say.

I excuse myself from our lunch table and start the walk to the cafeteria restroom. I open the door. "Hey, Dallon, you've been taking a while and-"

I stop.

I see Ryan crying into Dallon's shoulder. What the fuck?

Dallon opens his mouth to speak. "Brendon, I-"

I cut him off. "No, Dallon, I'm sorry. Sorry for thinking you actually felt the same. Sorry for falling for you for so long." My voice breaks near the end of my sentence.

I run from the cafeteria bathroom to the bleachers outside. I sit behind the bleachers and let the tears fall. I thought he liked me back, after all these years that I've liked him. I sob to myself and and to the empty bleachers and football field. Am I overreacting? All Ryan was doing was crying, right? Nothing really happened, right? I try to convince myself that it was a mistake, even though I truly believe everything happens for a reason. Then why did I have to walk inside that bathroom?

Wait.

Why was Ryan crying? The crystal streaks leaving my eyes fade away ever so slowly. My sadness and anger turns into curiosity. Did Dallon forgive him?

I hear footsteps and I turn to their direction. I see Dallon with a sad smile, and slightly panting. He must've been looking for me.

He starts to apologize. "I'm sorry, Brendon. I still don't like Ryan anymore, and he was literally crying in the bathroom when I got in! I actually didn't know wh-"

"No, Dallon. I'm sorry. I overreacted and my stupid brain couldn't process what was happening in time." I say.

"I still want to make up for what happened. Do you want to hang out after school? My house and Dr. Pepper?" He asks. His are eyes pleading for forgiveness, yet he did nothing wrong in reality. 

I nod. "Sure. Just without the soda stains." 

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Songs referenced:
Ride -twenty one pilots
In The End -Linkin Park (A late RIP to Chester. I didn't really listen to their music, but my parents liked Linkin Park and saw them live. He inspired so many people with his music.)

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Modern Day Cain has me in shambles. That's all.

In all honesty and seriousness, it's almost 7:00am and I've been having MDC on repeat since 12:00am. Not kidding, I let it play while I slept for only two hours because I waited for the release. It's so amazing.. Social Climb and Choke are my favorites, and Modern Day Cain was okay when I first heard it, but if all the studio versions of the songs are absolutely incredible like this I can't wait.