Hopeless Romantic -- Brallon

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BBU

"Uh, I... I want to be with Ryan."

No. No, no, no, no, no!!! This wasn't supposed to happen! What the fuck? I thought he loved me!

I feel tears leave my eyes and everything becomes blurred. Everything is blurred, yet still visible. Why? I don't want to see anything, or hear, or even fucking live!

Mr. Wentz purses his lips and watches as Ryan snakes his arm around Dallon's waist.

Dallon.

He's just sitting there with a sad face.

"Why?!? Why the fuck would you choose him? I thought you loved me!!" I scream at Dallon as tears leave my eyes violently. (Buy Violent Things on iTunes)

We stand up from the desks and Dallon cowers slightly.

Ryan steps back and puts his arm in front of Dallon. "Whoa, whoa there! Don't threaten my boyfriend!" Ryan says accusingly.

"I wasn't threatening him, idiot! I fucking love him! But I guess he doesn't love me, despite saying it earlier today!" I yell.

Water begins to spill from Dallon's water-colored eyes. Good. He's crying. He should feel as much pain as I do right now.

Ryan turns to Dallon.

"Did you really say you love him?"

Dallon doesn't do anything but cry. It doesn't even fucking look like he's crying. He looks emotionless as tears stream down his porcelain face.

Ryan scoffs. "We're leaving."

"I don't think so. You have detention?" Mr. Wentz corrects.

"Well, I don't give a fuck." Ryan scowls.

"Okay. You can skip detention. I'll give you an F for the semester." Mr. Wentz replies nonchalantly.

"You can't do that!!! ...Can you?" Ryan questions.

Mr. Wentz nods.

He sighs and walks to his desk. "Boys, I hope you all heal emotionally. I don't know the fuck is going on in your hormonal minds, but it's insane how many tears were just shed. Just don't disrupt class next time with your relationship problems. You can all leave."

Ryan takes Dallon's arm and they run out of the classroom.

As soon as I reach for the door, Mr. Wentz calls me.

"Brendon! I'm sorry. I really wish you and Dallon the best. Ryan can fuck off." He smiles.

"Thanks, Mr. Wentz." I answer.

I race out the door to follow where they went.

I look through all the hallways and the available classrooms, but apparently they've already left school. I hope Ryan doesn't do anything shitty to Dallon. I hope he didn't do anything shitty to Dallon. I'm pretty sure he did though, considering how Dallon was acting in class earlier.

I really wish Dallon would tell me what's wrong. I know he doesn't want to be in a relationship with Ryan, but why exactly are they together, then?

I sigh and walk outside to my car. I get inside and check my phone. It's already 3:28, so I guess I stayed an extra hour at school. That's great. I should just go home and cry some more.

But right now, I feel like thinking and crying in my car instead of in my room.

Wow, Brendon. Good job. Your crush confessed to loving you and started dating someone else the same day.

I feel like my inner monologue has been very loquacious recently. My own thoughts are making me hate myself. It's like I'm in hell.

Even though I love Dallon, I couldn't ignore the faint possibility of him liking me back. I pushed too far, despite us not being together yet. Now Ryan has him wrapped around his finger. I know it's not my doing, but I feel so guilty about all of this.

Maybe I should talk with Ryan. I'll try to actually sort things out, and if that doesn't work, I'll fucking beat him up. Because he just deserves it now.

I sigh and finally turn my car on to drive home.

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Songs referenced:
Bike Ride -The Brobecks
Reflections -MisterWives