Hopeless Romantic -- Brallon

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DJW

"I'm going to break up with Ryan Ross." I state.

Brendon looks up at me with his coffee-brown eyes filled with excitement and anticipation. "Really?!"

I nod with determination. "Yes, really. I need to break up with him, and not be so afraid of everything. I've been afraid of everything since I was born. I need to be able to trust."

"I'm so proud of you, Dallon." Brendon sighs. "It hasn't even been that long, yet we've come so far."

"True. It honestly feels so good to get that off my chest. I feel like not telling you all that was eating me alive." I respond.

"If we're doing confessions, can I say some things?" He asks.

I shrug. "Uh... sure? I mean, I wasn't really-"

"Well first of all, I think Ryan is a douchebag. And an asshole. And all the worst things imagined, combined." He says confidently, albeit adorably at the same time.

"I agree." I chuckle. "I don't think it was smart of me to be with him in the first place."

"Why were you with Ryan? Not currently, but in middle school." Brendon inquires. 

I look up in thought, and begin to explain. "I was really insecure in middle school. Actually, I'm still really insecure, but I just hide it now. As you know, because of your letter."

He nods.

I continue. "I didn't really have any close friends. I was friends with a handful of people, and I knew plenty I was fond of, but none that were extremely close with me. I knew you, Spencer, Ryan S, Josh, Tyler, and Linda. My anxiety and overall mental health was really bad at the time, and I had no one to comfort me except for my family. They didn't help much except for my mom. That's when Ryan stepped in. He was nice, and we became friends. Such good friends, that he asked me out and I was so flattered that I said yes. We did like each other, but he was obviously overprotective and didn't really let me get close to anyone else. I was too late to realize he's not a good person."

Brendon sighs. "That all makes sense. Y'know, I was content with me liking you, and you not feeling the same. I thought love could be a one-way street. Even if we got closer, I still wanted you to be so kind as to fall in love with me. My only mistake was kissing you. But when Ryan moved back, I immediately became jealous again. You guys started dating, and I couldn't bear the thought of you having someone else that want me."

"I understand." I say. Even though we're having a nice time bonding and confessing feelings, I never wanted to be thinking this loud. "Wanna get out of here? I'm pretty sure the school staff are all leaving now."

"Yeah. Need anything from your locker?" He questions. "You always need something from your locker."

I shake my head. "No, I have everything. I don't think I have homework today."

Brendon and I walk out the school doors and almost instantly, we hear someone crying. We look around the entrance of the school to see the one and only, Ryan Ross. He's curled up into a ball with tears leaving his eyes.

Brendon and I look at each other with wide eyes and surprised faces. How the fuck am I going to break up with Ryan now?

"Ryan? What are you doing?" I ask, biting my lip.

He looks up in shock and flinches when he sees us. He then starts to cry harder.

"What happened to him?" Brendon whispers to me.

"I don't know. I'm still going to have to do it, though." I whisper back. Even if Ryan was a terrible person, you can't just break up with someone if they're already crying. And to be honest, Ryan is one of those people who cries very emotionally. Pity and guilt immediately sink into my heart when we hear him speak.

"I can hear y-you."

"Is it what I said? I'm sorry, Ryan. Uh, I didn't mean to be so rude." I apologize.

He sniffles. "It's fine. I was... I w-was going to talk to you two and stuff but, m-my-"

He breaks out in more sobs.

Brendon squints his eyes. "Are you okay? I mean, I know you aren't, but what happened?"

"M-my mom called. She said we're moving b-back to New York."

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Songs referenced:
Would You Be So Kind -dodie
Blonde -Waterparks
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