Hopeless Romantic -- Brallon

{23}

(I'm so sorry for not updating in a while. You can read the previous chapter if you need to catch up on what happens.)

DJW

Ryan guides me to a seat in the back of the classroom, where it's mostly empty. I hesitantly sit next to him.

"Maybe Mr. Wentz just doesn't like me. What do you think, babe?" Ryan asks me.

I take a deep breath trying to calm down. I don't want to be near him at all. I move a seat over, hoping he won't get upset about it.

Ryan gives me a look of disbelief. I instantly fake a smile and move back. He smirks and puts his arm around me. I try not to cringe at how hard he's trying.

(^try not to cringe challenge,, go!!!)

Out of the corner of ny eye, I notice Brendon watching us. I would kill to tell him this isn't right. He should already know something is wrong. I told him I felt the same, but that's probably all ruined now because of Ryan.

He looks towards Brendon and mouths "Mine". Ryan moves closer to me. I'm honestly terrified of everything that's happening. Maybe he is right. I am too scared to function.

Brendon seems very cross with Ryan. He has a look of determination as he moves over to the row in front of us.

"Y'know, Ryan, Dallon isn't an object. You can't own him." He sneers.

Ryan looks out the classroom window and shrugs. "What if I do?"

Suddenly, Brendon's attention is on me. "Dallon, are you okay? Did Ryan do anything? What happened?"

I really want to answer honestly, but I don't know what Ryan will do if I do. He looks at me with a strict face that says, "Tell him you're fine" so I do just that.

"No. Uh, yeah. Actually, I-I'm fine.." I reply. I start chewing on my lip.

Brendon sighs and turns to Ryan. "You better be ready to pass out from blood loss after class. I'll kill you if you've done anything to Dallon."

Damn! I might be saved!!

"He's still mine, and you're still a hopeless romantic. Do whatever you want, Urie. Just know I'm not the sinister type." Ryan says. "If anything, you are."

Brendon laughs sarcastically. "If I'm a bad person, then you're literally satan. I know something's up with Dallon and you." He glances at me with sympathetic eyes before turning back to Ryan with a scowl. "Whenever he bites his lip, it's either out of boredom, concentration, or fear. And I can obviously tell he's not bored or concentrated."

"So? Fuck you and your opinion. Doesn't mean it's true or not. And besides, Dallon wants to be with me. Right, Dallon?" Ryan says and lets go to turn to me.

I don't say anything.

Brendon butts in. "Actually, he should be with me. You had your turn in middle school, and it didn't work out. Isn't that right, Dallon?"

"Uh...." I mumble. I'm just in the middle of this mess. I mean, love triangle from hell as Spencer likes to call it. I want to be with Brendon but I'm too scared to tell Ryan no. And I don't want to actually date anyone yet!

Mr. Wentz's sudden voice makes all three of us flinch. "Ross, Urie, and Weekes. Stay after class."

So much for leaving the classroom while Ryan has detention. I look at the clock and sigh. Only four more minutes until class is over. Everything seems muted to my ears and eyes. I can hear and see Brendon and Ryan arguing over me, however.

"This is all your fault! You shouldn't have moved over here!"

"You're the asshat who walked into class late! Hmm, with who was it? Your boyfriend?"

"Yup! MY boyfriend. Not yours."

"What do you mean he's not mine? He feels the same, but you fucking snatched him away!"

"I did not!! He wants to be with me, dipshit!"

"No he doesn't! We have something! You don't! We have.. that ultra kind of love you never walk away from!"

"What the fuck? You're making this up!!"

I snap. "Can you guys just shut up? I don't belong to anybody!"

The bell rings. Students begin to walk out of the classroom until Brendon, Ryan, and I are left. Spencer and Ryan S. offer to stay, but Mr. Wentz excuses them. 

"So." Mr. Wentz says.

"So?" Ryan asks.

"Shut up." Brendon whispers.

"You shut up." Ryan snaps back.

"Both of you shut up." Mr. Wentz says harshly. "Okay. This is obviously disturbing the class. We need to fix whatever the fuck is wrong with you three so I can teach my class properly."

Brendon scoffs. "Fix Ryan."

"Um, no?? Fix Brendon. He's like, a stalker." Ryan sneers.

"You're the fucking stalker!" Brendon yells.

"C-can I leave? This is kinda their problem, don't you think?" I whisper sheepishly.

Mr. Wentz shakes his head. "You're part of this."

I slouch down in my chair.

"Let me get this clear. Ryan and Dallon are together, now?" Mr. Wentz asks.

Ryan nods and holds my hand. Brendon grimaces.

"But obviously, Brendon isn't okay with this?" Mr. Wentz continues.

"They're not supposed to be together!! Dallon doesn't like Ryan! He must've done something to get Dallon to be with him again! A-also, they've already dated in middle school, and it didn't work out! Obviously something is fucking wrong." Brendon exclaims.

Our teacher nods. "Let's see."

He turns to me. "Dallon, you're dating Ryan, correct?"

I give a small nod.

"Do you really want to be with Ryan?" He asks.

Everybody's staring at me now, waiting for an answer Mr. Wentz looks patient. Brendon looks hopeful, like he might cry, either way. Ryan is biting his lip while squeezing my hand.

Fuck.

I mean, I don't want to be with Ryan. I don't. At all. But he might tell Brendon and everybody about my "problems" and then I'll be a social outcast. No one would want to be friends with me if they find out I could like, pass out or throw up if I get too scared. Ryan might also do something more than what he did in the classroom earlier. He might invade on my privacy more. I'd hate that. I hate him. Why does he want me so badly? Brendon's not that desperate for me that he'd do that.

But, I really really, really, really want to be with Brendon. I don't want to decide with my head. I want to choose with my heart. And my heart goes to Brendon. I get butterflies when I see him. I felt sparks when we kissed. I giggle when he makes jokes. I smile at everything he does. He's incredible.

"Dallon, are you okay? You're almost hyperventilating." Mr. Wentz says.

"I-I'm fine. I'm good." I gulp.

"We're still waiting for an answer, babe." Ryan says, obviously letting me know to choose him.

"It's okay, Dallon. Just answer. It's me or him, okay?" Brendon smiles reassuringly. I can tell he's hiding so many emotions right now.

"Uh, I... I want to be with Ryan." I breathe.

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Songs referenced:
Ignorance -Paramore
Kick Me -Sleeping With Sirens
In The Middle -dodie
The Last Of The Real Ones -Fall Out Boy (aka A TOTAL BOP, probably my favorite from Mania so far)