Cody Christian/Theo Raeken Imagines

I've barely been eating...

I've had bulimia for a while now. Cody still has no idea. He hasn't noticed the change in my eating habits. A part of me doesn't want him to find out because he may leave. But another part of me knows that he will help me. Holland has been trying to help me but it feels like nothing is ever going to help. Me and Cody are at home right now. He has eaten half the pizza and i've only had one slice. I think he is starting to notice.

"Hey, whats wrong? You haven't been eating like you used too." he said, putting his plate down. "Im just not hungry." I lied. I didn't want him to find out this way. "For a year Y/N? What's going on with you?" he asked, facing me. "I'm fine Cody. I just-I don't feel like eating." I said, looking back at him. He gave me a sad look and nodded. "Baby, I know what's going on. I know about the bulimia. I just want you to know that I love you, no matter what. You can always come talk to me if you need anything. You are so strong and beautiful and I couldn't ask for a better girl. You make me so happy and I can't even explain to you how much I love you." he said, holding my hands. 

I looked at him, my eyes wide and shocked."Ho-how did you find out?"I asked. I already knew the answer. Holland was the only person I told. So I knew he heard it from her. I wasn't mad though, I know she was trying to help. "Holland told me. She said that you were concerned that you were getting too chubby for me. The truth is baby, I love it. I love that you're a little chubby. I don't wanna cuddle with a hockey stick, I wanna cuddle with you. You make me happy no matter what you look like. You are so beautiful and I wish you could see you the way I see you. I am not going anywhere. If you feel like you're getting too chubby, please don't make yourself throw up every night. Talk to me and I will help you. I promise you that just because you gain a little weight, I'm not leaving. I love you, and I want you to be happy." he said. I was crying at this point. The sobs were racking my body so harshly I thought I might actually throw up on accident this time. 

"Baby come here," he said, holding me close to his chest and stroking my hair. "I love you. I love you damn much baby." he whispered into my hair. "I'm so-sorry Cody. I just-I didn't know how to tell you. I just wanna make you happy and I thought you were losing interest and I vented to Holland and I-I was afraid that if you found o-out you would l-leave and then it would just get worse. I am sorry Cody I really am." I sobbed, clinging to him like he was a life line. 

"Shh baby. It's okay. I am not going anywhere. Please eat." he begged, holding up a piece of pizza. I smiled and nodded, happily taking to piece and biting into it. Not worry about anything but seeing Cody smile again.