tomorrow, on august 18th, is going to my first wattpad anniversary
tbh i will admit that my life was leading up to this moment ever since i was born so expect me to die on august 18th bc lol
round of applause to sisley !!
watch me get tomatoes thrown at me instead
:((
hays, anywho, i'm currently feeling sad (what's new) and the reasoning behind that is because i've hardly did anything progressive in 2017, and 2017 is already going to be ending in a couple of months. i remember thinking back at this at june or july and promising myself that in august, my lucky month (lol what), i'll finally be able to do something productive, but guess what? that didn't happen (yipeeeeeeeee). basically, what i'm trying to say is that my life will probably end up being the same all over again next year, and next year, unless i start to take action, which i'm not really willing to make bc of multiple reasons. i'll always be fucking lonely in real life, i'll never be able to accomplish at least one of my new year's resolutions ever, and i'll still always be sad asf. and should i accept that? probably, considering i can't do anything for the life of me. i already have social anxiety which blocks out socialization with strangers in real life; what's next? another death from my only standing grandma? more fights from my parents? more anxiety attacks which make me get bloody bold spots? sure! that'll be great.
i'm sorry.
