hah yes i just referenced that one carly rae jepson album
anyone remember that "call me maybe" era? goshh back when that was relevant it was playing everywhere in my country no kidding (very annoying)
anywho!! yesterday i got trapped in a public bathroom by myself and only then did i realize how much my emotions can control my behavior. i seriously was not thinking anything through rationally at that time and i was panicking and my legs felt like they were on the brink of giving up and dropping. it was extremely embarrassing, too, bc there was this lady on the other end who was somehow assisting me and when i finally got out by figuring out how to unlock the complicated lock, i quickly said "thanks" and ran out (who even does that??? apparently me hah this is why i hate myself so much). and the moral of the story is to never let your dumb emotions control you and to stay focused in scary situations no matter how much your anxiety gets to u (and although i already said this piece of fantastic advice, i'm pretty sure it still won't change anything about my reactions to events bc that's just my unchangeable anxiety *finger guns*)
also, what is the thing with bisexuals always doing finger guns? hmmm it's the many mysteries of the world 🤔🤔 although, actually, my sister is bi and she hardly does finger guns i'm so confused what do i even live by nowadays
update: my device currently only has 200 mb so i'm not rlly allowing myself to save unnecessary pictures like memes and tbh i feel like adding a meme right about now
i !! love !! singing !! solo !! (if u get the reference ur instantly my favorite person in the world ok? ok.) nevertheless, though, life atm is good (very very good) bc i just started officially shipping a ship in six of crows and my lil heart feels so content and actually alright. in coming news: adorable otps apparently are temporary cures to sick and sad hearts u heard it here folks!! i'm desperate
anywho, i was thinking back on my childhood earlier and i remembered this iconic story that was ironically funny?? so basically, this happened around when i was 7 or 8 and my ate (sister) invited her friend over who she invited her cousin to come over to our house (that's a lot of confusing words), and we were just chillin like buds and this cousin starts looking around and spots my sister and i's pictures of us as flower girls. she proceeds to say that my sister apparently looked pretty and guess what she said about me??? yup, she said that i looked ugly (and that's accurate heh). after that, i ran upstairs and began to cry in my grandma's room. on the brighter side, at least now i'm aware of my hideous appearance so that i won't be that affected anymore to insults!!
i want to play stardew valley now hmph
bye lovelies i love all of u very much and please stay hydrated and take your meds frequently :")) stay safe
//adoraisdoingthisagaincourtesytoalliyahssadnessadora\\
u hAve so much worth in this world smh and don't tell me otherwise
(i'm in such a positive mood wow is this even sisley anymore??)
