i know i come off as very whiny sometimes for the most stupidest of things and i know it's down right annoying but guys
i have found the aesthetic people section of wattpad that i'm not even acquainted with and tbh it's oxygen to me now
like?? i'm lowkey hitting them up on their message board and?? i feel so small and irrelevant and terrible (compared to them) whenever i do it. it's like the old part of me is making an appearance again and i feel so terrified to communicate with them lol i'm afraid i'll embarrass myself or something
and they just seem so sUPERIOR AND INTIMIDATING
this is a cry for help someone teach me how to socialize without coming off as too weird or desperate or lonely fnfgfgdhdhfgfng
and there was this one amazing human being (i hope they don't see this) i came across yesterday and they had this doDIE pfp and they made this amazing fan fiction about the angel herself?? *breathes* i needed to say hi or something ok (u get me??)
anyway, instead of being cool and chill (i will admit i sang that in the tone of more than survive, oops), i kind of didn't and just - with all caps on - admitted my love for her book and she replied (this is the part where i scream) and i replied with being honest and saying i was fREAKING OUT from the notice (cringecringecringe) and then she followed me and then at that moment i was basically dead
followed her back after that, and now i have the urge to idk say hi but i feel like that's too much and goshgoshgosh u guys do realize this is how i was exactly feeling about u when we first met lol
i overthink things too much :((
AND THERE WAS THIS OTHER PERSON WHO SEEMED NEAT AND THEY WERE USING TAGALOG DIALECT IN THIS ONE MESSAGE AND ??? PLUS THEY'RE LIKE AESTHETIC AS FUCK- *chokes*
oh well, at least i didn't follow any one of them lol
...it also didn't help that i just downloaded mystic messenger again, which means that my mood online will be more jumpy and hyper than usual... help
did yall hear of the wattpad convention that's gonna happen in the next couple of months though lol i want to attend but it's only in america unfortunately
i am a mix of things today.
//adoraisjustoverallcringeewadora\\
bye lovelies !!
hhHHh i'm not okay
